I think I'm officially manic for the first time in probably about a year or 13ish months? welcome back Hurricane JoeJoe

there's a girl I had a really big crush on (and still kinda do…) and I thought stuff was going super well with her and she slept over last night but she left this morning before I woke up and she texted me that she just wants to be friends and we called just now and apparently the slight bender I went on about a week ago crossed a major boundary for her and tbf she hadn't told me til just now but man… I'm actually kind of heartbroken all of a sudden this is the first girl I've had this kind of feelings for in awhile… I'm really sad and I wish she'd said something that night cause I hate it but I feel almost led on a little bit

Seasonal depression compounded on top of regular depression sucks.

I feel distant from the life I want, yet the aspects of my life that feel consistent with the life I wanted last year no longer serve. First world problems!

On 2/8/2026 at 3:17 PM, jeauseph said:

there's a girl I had a really big crush on (and still kinda do…) and I thought stuff was going super well with her and she slept over last night but she left this morning before I woke up and she texted me that she just wants to be friends and we called just now and apparently the slight bender I went on about a week ago crossed a major boundary for her and tbf she hadn't told me til just now but man… I'm actually kind of heartbroken all of a sudden this is the first girl I've had this kind of feelings for in awhile… I'm really sad and I wish she'd said something that night cause I hate it but I feel almost led on a little bit

the dating world is so bleak sis . i came into this thread to complain about my own dating life because it's really gotten me down this weekend after being ghosted after yet another first date that i actually felt went really well . it's soooo rough out there

Depressed with the state of this country, but my life is a mess and the only thing holding me together are my friends, but they live up north while I'm stuck in the dusty south.😢

Been trying to do better and I do plan on leaving this hellscape south at all cost, but some days I find it harder to wake up.

I feel so low but my brain is such a mess I can't even gather my thoughts to figure out exactly what is wrong

I want to drink myself to sleep but I have a 17 hour shift tomorrow and it'll be hell to get through hungover

I want to end everything, I'm so tired of living like this

Somebody help please

6 minutes ago, KFC said:

I feel so low but my brain is such a mess I can't even gather my thoughts to figure out exactly what is wrong

I want to drink myself to sleep but I have a 17 hour shift tomorrow and it'll be hell to get through hungover

I want to end everything, I'm so tired of living like this

My mind often spins out at night too before work, so I get it. Do you have anything like melatonin to help you get to sleep, or maybe a calming mindless show to watch? Definitely don't drink as it can make the spiral worse. My DMs are open if you ever need to talk

14 minutes ago, KFC said:

I feel so low but my brain is such a mess I can't even gather my thoughts to figure out exactly what is wrong

I want to drink myself to sleep but I have a 17 hour shift tomorrow and it'll be hell to get through hungover

I want to end everything, I'm so tired of living like this

Everything always feels f**king the worst at night time! You will drift to sleep, your worries will lessen, you will feel better tomorrow and you might possibly even have a lovely day. Chin up cutie pie!!

great. right when I thought we'd become friends again and we'd moved past everything he hits me with this:

HE has never apologized to ME! and he's expecting me to give him another f*cking apology? DUDE! you still owe me $100 you said you were "borrowing" AND ON F*CKING TOP OF THAT YOU DIDN'T PAY YOUR HALF OF RENT IN THE FINAL MONTH WE LIVED TOGETHER and you DARE ask ME for another apology? my f*cking god. and btw, Matt and Mandi randomly blocked me today and they've never said anything to me in MONTHS! I did not "write them off," they're 30-something year old alcoholics who are acting like f*cking middle schoolers out here. jesus f*cking christ. kill my goddamn self.

Turns out I was just overworked, overwhelmed and overstimulated. I'm on my way to Mexico and I feel great! Thanks to everyone here for their support I truly appreciate it.

My chronic pain and fatigue is effectively isolating me from everyone and everything. I get off work to just black out for a few hours, to maybe read a bit and then to bed. On a loop. My weekends are basically recovery and nothing more. I'm still working full time which I just don't think is feasible anymore because life doesn't seem worth living if all you can do is just be functional enough to maybe complete your work tasks and nothing more. I have been struggling with suicidal ideation which I thought I conquered a long time ago. I just wake up and want to die.

girlies, I'm doing quite well nowadays, i hope you all find your strength to keep pushing through and may of us see and feel you

I don't want to live

Whew the existential crisis im going through sjshshsjsjsj

The last few weeks I've been slammed with a huge wave of regret and feel like I've lost all the time in my life. I'm trying so hard not to feel hopeless and harness this energy to finally Jumpstart my career. I can't take my circumstances anymore and want to make my aspirations reality before I fully lose my chance.

yesterday morning I had to deal with my ex-roommate/ex-best friend sending me heinous text messages including false accusations of horrible sh*t to slander me, this morning my car is stuck in the mud on the side of a country road in the middle of f*cking nowhere of a town west of Denver. fortunately, my dad was just helping me out and a tow truck is on the way to help move my car, and also fortunately my car seems fine knocks on wood (I'm surrounded by trees) but man. this feels like just as much of my rock bottom as my overdose on my 28th birthday did. I'm really goddamn going through. thankfully, I am safe and uninjured. I'm glad the tow truck is nearby. I honestly just want to go home even though I'm not actually that tired. I feel bad cause I was in the middle of delivering a breakfast Mickey D's order to some dude who lives out here in the styx but yeah that never was completed. at least I can just eat it when I get home or whatever (even though I also got McDick's breakfast for myself earlier lol) but yeah. very thankful for my dad and for the fact that I'm totally safe rn but stressed beyond belief at the same damn time. my life is truly chaos.

okay my best friend (she lives in VA) and I called just now and she reminded me that this is NOT my rock bottom and that with my overdose last year I almost died lol. so honestly this is small potatoes comparatively but yeah this year is sucking so far y'all, can't deny it

On 3/1/2026 at 9:02 AM, jeauseph said:

okay my best friend (she lives in VA) and I called just now and she reminded me that this is NOT my rock bottom and that with my overdose last year I almost died lol. so honestly this is small potatoes comparatively but yeah this year is sucking so far y'all, can't deny it

Happy for you that you've seen the light in the darkness no matter how small it is ❤️

how f*cking insane and obsessed with me do you have to be to do this sh*t… genuinely, why am I still on his f*cking mind?

LIKE MOVE. THE F*CK. ON. you're really gonna pull that sh*t? obviously after changing it just now I made certain that he was now logged out of my f*cking email on whatever device he had logged into it on. I'm just pissed dude. I wouldn't do this sh*t to him. maybe the whole time during our friendship, during when we lived together, whenever he said I was a poor judge of character he was really referring to how I'd let him in. he can't not know that he's a jerk. there's gotta be a part of him that knows.

I got accepted into one of the PhD programs I applied to, but I can't even get excited about it. I'm too consumed by fear. I would have to move to a new state, for one. I also just have severe imposter syndrome lol. Trying not to self-sabotage though. I still have another school Im waiting to hear back from.

I am so burned out.

Was in a good mood, then it went to ****. I hate everything

On 3/4/2025 at 12:20 AM, jeauseph said:

trying my hardest to not let the unprovoked rudeness of a member in the Gaga base just now get to me but it's lowkey kind of hard! trying not to be hurt by a random idiotic comment by someone I've never even interacted with but when it's the last hour of my night shift and I've been feeling incredibly insecure about my looks lately it's actually kind of difficult 

baby log off. or change your pfp. unfortunately this is a messy pop culture forum where people go to be messy about their fave pop-divas and hide behind a pfp of said pop-diva.

Can't sleep and I don't want to be here anymore 💔