My seborrheic dermatitis is the worst it's ever been. My face is red af and looks like it's under attack. No man is ever going to find me sexy now I'm going to be alone and a virgin forever. I just want to stay in my room all my life and no one see my ugly disgusting self ever.

Edited July 19Jul 19 by Seahorse

I thought posting crazy things in Lounge would make me relatable but I think I'm more hated than ever now. Feeling rejected by atrlers and constantly getting ratioed is the worst of the worst. I'd rather get stoned like they did me in 5th grade.

Started catastrophizing all of the sudden about the direction of my life again. This year has been going on so well, but it suddenly hit me that there's so much stuff I need to do after this summer. I know in the end I'm probably overthinking things at least, and I think I'm slowly starting to recover from spiraling earlier this evening.

I feel like this Kacey Musgraves song perfectly describes my mood rn

Is there a word for the way that I'm feeling tonight?
Happy and sad at the same time
You got me smilin' with tears in my eyes
I never felt so high
No, I've never been this far off of the ground
And they say everything that goes up must come down
But I don't wanna come down

Hope anyone will mental illness will get better, it's really sucks.

The more time I spend here the more I'm convinced this is just all part of my imagination ..............

I'm on vacation right now.

Got a call from my doggy sitter, my dog 'passed away randomly' … now having to plan crematorium services. I'm devastated. I can't even go home because all the flights home are so expensive and / or full. I'm losing my mind.

depressing, maybe don't read

My sister died yesterday and I can't shake how much she resented me and so did all of her online friends. I know why they did though and how awful I was. I lived with her my whole life too and she did too so she never even got to have a good life. She took care of me and my mom (my mother was a big drinker and hasn't had a job since 08) and she was killing herself. When I saw her yesterday, I learned how she died. For starters, this had been going on ever since January 2026. She had been put on intubation for a scratch/cough in her throat this time though (while she was dealing with congestive heart failure - diagnosed in March 2026, breathing problems and being mistreated by nurses). They thought she had pneumonia (she was a big girl so they couldn't get a proper scan) and she couldn't breathe well to being with. Apparently, her lungs started completely collapsing , don't know why fully, but she was literally gone within 10 minutes of her lungs shutting down and when I found out, it was 2 and a half hours later and I was at work (my mother had this bright idea to offer to wait for me to get off work). I will truly never be able to say goodbye. Her left eyelid kept opening and it scared me. I didn't think of it yesterday but I think today it was a sign to tell me to get out. I'm also sick right now which doesn't help my mental fog. My sickness started the day before yesterday. I know she's mad at me though and I don't wanna be around to make her unhappy. I don't even wanna bother her in heaven if there is a heaven and I certainly don't wanna die before we have her memorial so she can have her own memorial and not remember two lives - one bad, one good. My sister is one of the nicest people alive and she was dealt a horrible hand in this world and me and my mother's constant fighting made it worse. I did read what was said on her iPad and she called me stupid when I got ran over by a car the day it happened because I didn't call the police (I did after but she may have not known that). Her friends in their goodbye messages to my sister said that I was "a very difficult" brother. She never even said my name to them in general though because she resented me that much.... I just needed to vent, I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense. I don't think anyone deserved what my sister went through and honestly, all this time, I never thought about her individual feelings I guess because I had so much resentment towards my mother for mistreating me and my sister when I was younger. I should've left this place years ago and so should've my sister. Maybe she wouldn't be dead. I only have one real life friend so like.... so maybe it's true what my mom says. I am extremely angry at this world and what it is now. Working in Seattle has made it worse. People are just... truly awful. You know one time, I begged her "why cant you just hate me?" and she said "that's not true, I would never hate you! I still love you". I wish she wouldn't so I could've just been able to handle yesterday and today like normal but I'll never be able to. I did tell her on her birthday that no matter what happens, I still love her. We didn't speak since but I thought I had more time. I was planning after I had some more money to go see and spend the day with her in the hospital. I didn't expect her to die this quick... it was even so sudden that when I got there about 4pm, she was fighting it. She died with her ******* fingers curled up.

On 7/14/2026 at 5:35 AM, Dear Reader said:

I thought I was getting better after one year of therapy but I still see myself getting sad and angry out of nowhere. It's so ****** up that our brains are just wired in some ways and you are literally trapped with it for the rest of your life. I wish I could restart.

Same. I'm stuck with this anger for the rest of my life and it will never end. It may diminish, but it's there in the back of my mind. I wish I would've spiraled more after my sister's death and killed myself like I planned to last night. Then I wouldn't be here to complain about my sister being dead.

Sending hugs to everyone goin through struggles here. I understand it. This life can be so confusing and hard sometimes and the mind is a ***** with age i learned to control my mind but there are some days where im like...............Can u shut the **** up? Hope nice things come to you all and youre all able to replace bad ideas with calmer ones

Mezik and chemist. I have no words. Im so so sorry babes =( My heart breaks for both of you. When grieves comes is really hard to say something positive but sending you guys strength and energy of protection and light so youre all able to get through these awful hard times. I had my bunch of supernatural experiences in the past and im a believer in the afterlife. I know yll be able to reconnect with them one day again. Sending love to you guys. Big warm hug

Edited August 7Aug 7 by AvadaKedavra

everytime I reveal a part of myself that's rooted in insecurity up front it turns people away immediately. I might as well just accept that women will never be into me ever again and that men will only be into me from now on

On 8/15/2026 at 2:49 AM, jeauseph said:

everytime I reveal a part of myself that's rooted in insecurity up front it turns people away immediately. I might as well just accept that women will never be into me ever again and that men will only be into me from now on

okay it's always so insane how 24 hours really can change sh*t cause scratch this self-pitying defeatist attitude: I went out with a totally different crowd last night/this morning and several women were very up front about how they found me attractive and I even made out with one of them and it was so hot. like nvm lemme not carry that nasty energy even when it gets rough sometimes. I'm only now becoming the best Joe I can possibly be and it's getting better everyday

@Baby Dancer yeah sorry idk why I said that either, reading it back it definitely confuses me a bit. like I do know realistically why in that moment I said that but I need to stop being so fatalistic and always reverting to the most drastic wordings

2 hours ago, jeauseph said:

@Baby Dancer yeah sorry idk why I said that either, reading it back it definitely confuses me a bit. like I do know realistically why in that moment I said that but I need to stop being so fatalistic and always reverting to the most drastic wordings

Im not great with advice and Im not even sure this is the right thread for it, but Im glad it was just a hard night and dawn broke for you, big guy. There are obviously lots of women you havent met that will understand you.

Does anyone take Quetiapine (sold as Seroquel)? I started this medication 5 days ago and it has drained me of all energy

Is this heavy fatigue a side effect that eventually goes away ?

I've been studying this, and I now understand that my soul may have pre-planned this difficult life to grow and evolve spiritually through suffering. I hope things get better in this earthly life, but if not, I trust my next life will be better.

Last night before going to bed I came across an Instagram reels of Courage the Cowardly Dog, he was crying while posting a letter in the mail with sad music in the background. For some reason it made me sob uncontrollably. I guess I'm not okay

Went to chick fil a and the nuggets were cold and old. Was depressing. To chicken to ask for fresh chicken nuggets as well 🙄 only ate half and spit out the last bite. but God the boy that served me was extra hot 🫠

Edited August 22Aug 22 by Tate

Was making small talk with my physical therapist and the convo basically turned into me dancing around my own emptiness in life

Trintellix (vortioxetine). It saved my life and my career.

Im on a jury and it was a really bad case and I hated hearing from the other jurors. So dark,so angry, so sad.

On 5/26/2026 at 2:04 PM, Hollywood. said:

Been really good friends with this guy for the past year. It was the first time I bonded with someone as friends in a while, where I felt safe to be fully open about anything and vice versa. Last year, on the anniversary of my best friend's death, he took transit to my work to make sure I was okay. We messaged daily and usually saw each other 2-3 times a week. The longest we had gone apart was 3 weeks previously.

However, over the last two months, it seems we've been drifting. Something happened in March, and it doesn't seem like we've been able to recover from it. He also went through a rough time in April, and so I gave him space. But now it seems like it's even worse.

He says he still wants to hang out, but disappears when I try to play things. Now he leaves me on read for like 24 hours at a time.

Anyways I finally asked him how he really feels, and I feel were drifting apart, and we ended up fighting. I kinda regret even bringing it up because I feel like I just killed our friendship, but at the same time, it probably needed to be done.

Well its possible things could cool off and we could overcome it, I have a feeling that it just might be time to move on. It sucks cause I'll miss him a lot. I haven't seen him in person since the end of March.

Sooo I ran into this friend today and he acted as if nothing happened and even said we should catch up. It was awkward and still got the vibe he doesn't actually care and was just being nice.

I then noticed his profile now shows in "people you may know" so I've obviously been unblocked.

Getting over and moving on was tough and I don't feel like re-opening that wound, but maybe he'll open up about why he brushed me off.

Who knows maybe we just needed a little time apart to figure stuff out.

On 8/16/2026 at 4:11 PM, Ghiles said:

Does anyone take Quetiapine (sold as Seroquel)? I started this medication 5 days ago and it has drained me of all energy

Is this heavy fatigue a side effect that eventually goes away ?

I took it for about three days, then stopped because it made me look like a zombie.

I don't know why, out of the blue, I feel so optimistic. Sometimes I used to feel like I was falling behind in life because I hadn't achieved the same things as many people my age. In a few months, I'll be 30, and I feel like good things are coming. Which is strange for me, since I spent almost my entire adolescence depressed and thinking I wouldn't live past 30.

It was Pet Remembrance Day yesterday.

I cannot believe my baby is gone, she was my soul dog.

We... had to go to hell and back

For them to even see

That the hazard lights and empty smiles

Were all for free

Then... the darkness fell and veiled

And maybe gave reverie

But the morning light (**** the dew, donk)

Gave rise to more misery