2 hours ago, alexrex said:

Well, I haven't been addicted to any substance. But from what I've learned, relapsing comes due to emotional imbalance.

Is there any particular reason you went back to it? Have you told your therapist? 

 

unrelated but Push The Button is one of the greatest pop songs of all time 

If you were able to maintain your sobriety for 2 years, you can do it again and for even longer. Addiction is a disease and you shouldn't beat yourself up over it. You have every right to be devastated but keep the faith and don't give up. Start fresh by getting rid of any enablers or suppliers in your life. You can do it and don't let anybody convince you that you can't. Likewise, don't allow anybody to shame you for what you are dealing with. Each day is a new opportunity to start fresh.

My brother has struggled with addiction for most of his life. The one thing I can say is to not believe that your relapse means that you have to throw away all the progress you've made thus far. This may reset the clock on the number of days you've been sober, but it doesn't negate the work you've put in to date. I hope you can enter treatment as soon as possible and wish you all the luck in the world. Never stop trying.

Thanks ya'll for your really sweet replies and amazing advice, it really helped me to calm myself and put things into perspective 

On 8/2/2025 at 11:09 PM, Claymore said:

So, two days ago I relapsed and had a whole meth binge by myself. I've been sober for two years and it all happened so quick and randomly that it felt like I've went on auto mode with the sole reason of finding drugs, like my brain shut down. I've now slept for 8 hours but unsure how to process this, and I'm feeling depressed/lonely/devastated. Advice or thoughts? 

Also frame it as a slip, not as a full blown relapse.