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Yesterday, my bf invited me to have dinner with some acquaintances, there were around 10 gay men aged 25-30. I tried to be social and talkative, but there was a point where I simply gave up. They were SO loud. Everyone was basically talking-screaming over each other. They spent like an hour gossiping about people. I HATE gossiping. I always have, not even out of respect for the person being talked about, I just find it extremely boring, and my brain automatically disconnects. Then, every conversation somehow was about sex. I don't mind talking about sex at all, but it didn't feel mature. It felt like everyone was constantly trying to make jokes as if they were competing in a drag rae comedy challenge every time they opened their mouths. And they were SCREAMING, literally making pterodactyl noises every time someone said something "gaggy". I tried talking about music because madonna was playing in the background, but no one was interested for more like 3 minutes, so I ended up just talking to my bf. I tried bringing up cinema too, The Oddyssey, Obsession, the X-Men casting and again no one was interested to talk about it about more than a minute, the conversation always went back to "sex, when is the next party, hookups, gossiping, etc" My bf noticed that I was extremely uncomfortable, so he got me out of there. For the record, I'm autistic/asperger, and I've always struggled in social environments. I'm also easily annoyed by loud sounds I can't control. Over the years, I've learned how to mask, deal with groups of people, and "seem normal." At this point, I even feel genuinely comfortable around some people. But yesterday I just couldn't keep up the facade, I was visibly irritated by the time i got out of there. I have lots of gay friends, but I've never really been part of a gay friend group, and yeah, yesterday reminded me why. I feel like a lot of gay people have a different energy when you interact with them one on one. Like, you can actually talk and connect with them, whereas in a group, everything seems to become a joke or turn sexual and turn them extremely loud individuals, as if they feed into each other. I don't know if this is an internalized homophobia thing, or if I'm simply a more low-key person. Idk, has this ever happened to you to some degree? Any advice?

Listening to RoL feels like listening to the cosmos. What a flawless and ethereal album

No. Injust couldnt care less about other people and i hate all forms of gossiping

With Madonna receiving renewed acclaim and reaching yet another creative peak at 67, more than 40 years into her career, can we finally say that she is the most creative and innovative artist of all time, even ahead of Björk, whose output after Vespertine has been mostly subpar (except for Vulnicura) Discuss!

Thoughts?

Vote and discuss!!

Haven't listened to it yer, but streets are saying this is better than part one, can anyone confirm?

She is and it's not even close. Her debut album is the best-selling album of all time in Asia and she has sold over 50 million records throughout her career. She is one of the most acclaimed, influential, and commercially successful japanese artists ever. You are just racist and incapable of recognizing impact unless it comes packaged in english and filtered through white western lens. Embarrasing

The fact that you reduced one of the most legendary and acclaimed artists of all time to a "Charlie Puth collaborator" shows extreme ignorance and racism. Get educated

And its used correctly here btw

Considering Gaga is heavily influenced by two of the astists i mentioned i think it is!

I wasn't. I'm just less active because life's been busy lately, finishing my master's degree, working on lots of personal projects, recently started as an AI engineer at a startup, having a cute boyfriend i spend lots of time with , etc… But yeah, I still come here from time to time

My top 3 female artists are Kate Bush, Björk and Utada, so my taste is pretty tasteful i think

Does her? And if you agree, why do you think this is happening? Discuss

My parents are both non homophobic. My father even fought for human and lgbt rights during Spain's Franco dictatorship and he was jailed for that.

Some of yall will use any excuse to be annoying

Why are yall defending rich people commiting tax fraud? It's always tax the rich unless it's one of your yass queen pop girls. Shakira will stay rich regardless

Well it's more complicated than that. He literally can't be monogamous, he is a content creator in onlyfans

We're open, which happens to be another of our regular arguments. It's his first relationship in 8 years and his first open one, and he struggles a lot with the open side of it. He gets really jealous when I have a hookup, and then he gets mad that I don't get jealous when he tells me about his. I can separate physical sex from the emotional, romantic sex I have with my partner, he can't. Lately he's started trying to add rules: like we can only hook up when it happens organically at a party, or when the other one is out of the city, and that I should delete all the apps. I refused immediately. I've barely had a couple hookups since we started dating and I don't really miss it, but that's not the point, the point is I don't want to be told what I can or can't do when we both originally agreed to it.

We've seeing each other for like 8 months (4 dating, 4 official). I'm 25, he's 30. Our "falling in love" phase was wonderful. We didn't have a single argument. He was attentive, sweet, calm. We seemed made for each other and I really thought he was the one. Before we made it official, I was very clear that my personal freedom is non-negotiable, I'd just come out of a relationship, I'm doing my master's while working part-time, and I need space. He agreed, said he respected that and would never push. The moment we became official, that changed. Now if I go out with friends he needs constant check-ins and have to tell him whem i'm home. If I don't reply within 2–3 hours when i'm studying, in the gym or just because i'm busy, he assumes I'm ignoring him, and when I ask for a night alone he takes it as rejection and I end up spending the evening reassuring him instead of resting. When I don't want sex cause that specific night i just want to cuddle and watch a film, he interprets it as me not being attracted to him anymore, cries, and we argue for over an hour, and I almost always end up having sex in just to make the tension stop although i didnt want to. I've been told that's a form of coercion, but I don't know. The hardest part is that he knows. He has anxious attachment, he's read about it alot, watched hundreds of tiktoks, can explain the theory better than I can. We've had the conversation a dozen times,he listens, agrees, apologizes, we reach an agreement, and then something small triggers him and we're back in the same loop. On top of that, he's deeply depressed lately. Every time we meet he ends up crying and I'm consoling him. He's pushing his friends away (not speaking to his best friend rn over a small tantrum), and I'm scared I'm becoming the only person he has. He says he cannot afford to see a therapist, he's self-employed and hasn't been generating much money lately, plus he's terrible with his finances (owes money to the IRS). He says he'll figure his mental health out on his own. But right now I feel more like his therapist than his bf. I love him and I don't want to break up. At least yet. We've only been official 4 months and I genuinely believe if we get through this we can make it. I've never connected with someone as much as with him. I have hope he'll learn to respect my boundaries and get better. But the more anxious he gets and the more he tries to control me, the more suffocated I feel and I'm scared of where this is going. Has anyone here dated someone with anxious attachment and depression? How did it end?

Btw I had to take the page offline. I shared the app in a few other forums, and the page ended up getting over 20K visitors in the last week. The hosting provider told me the free tier wasn't enough anymore, so I would have had to upgrade to a higher paid tie and i don't want to, since this is a passion project Anyway, the app is completely open source, so you all can deploy it locally on your own machine. The good news is that most of the historical data from 1956 to April 2026 is already included in the repo as JSON files. You only need to run the ETL script to fetch the last few weeks of data and bring everything up to date. GitHubGitHub - jaimeberdejo/billboard_stats: Billboard Hot 100...Billboard Hot 100 & Billboard 200 statistics platform - jaimeberdejo/billboard_stats

Yes, whenever I have time I'll probably include Global 200 and Artist 100 next. But this is a passion project I have no plans to monetize, so right now I'm prioritizing uni work and another personal project I'm planning to release someday. But whenever I get the time, I'll do it!!

I was talking to my bf yesterday about the Met Gala and he said "I feel like it's such wasted potential. It should be an event where the limits of fashion are actually pushed, but it's too Americanized, everyone is just trying to look pretty and beautiful instead of making real fashion statements." I just told him, "Who cares? It's a fundraising event where rich people pay thousands for attention. I don't think it actually has any of that potential to begin with" He took it personal

i added this And added a start year and end year filter. For genre and gender is tricky since the billboard api doens't provide that information and i would have to use external metadata with every artist in the dataset, but it's not impossible.

Billboard's credits changed over time. I've manually merged them. Done!