22 hours ago, Hollywood. said:

Someone told me I give them serial killer vibes

Hi

5 hours ago, mxoonlight said:

Hi

Hello

Just a few months ago, I was comfortable in my own skin and even somewhat loved myself after lots of effort as I used to hate myself. Now, I hold self-resentment because I believe I'm a little b**ch who deserves absolutely nothing as I will do nothing to improve my life. Adulting in America f**king sucks and it takes sssooo much effort to get better than I don't want to. Like, I'm just okay putting up with everything because I believe in self-punishment over happiness. I do still have a job and pay bill because I'm attached to someone I hope to marry, yet sometimes I secretly hope things don't work out between us so I end up in more pain that maybe I'll be forced to make progress. And yet, I have never loved someone as much and never will again. I don't know what I want next, other than a job I genuinely enjoy. But what would I "enjoy"? Absolutely nothing sounds appealing, and my mind, body, and spirit do not belong on this plane of existence. Basically everything is terrible, except for the fact that it's not because I'm consistently numb.

Will be seeing what Alyson Moyet was about and whether Madonna endings were secretly taking place.

I miss having a guy I crush on and get butterflies with and I don't have the confidence anymore but I also don't settle for less having someone say I got someone to set you up with after is not hanging for 10 years? How does she know. I got a type and I'm not gonna settle for a desperate clingy white guy with a beard. That's a problem with me yes but I should have my self worth and pick who id date. Then I got my mother saying when I'm gonna date again? When I'm ready yes it's been 3 or 4 years it's the longest me ever being single. I have lost all my self confidence and while I'm working on it she'll go ew your hair is disgusting your ugly. Like okay you want me to put myself on the market but then say that?

I'm hurt and honestly maybe I should settle for a mid white man but why? I just want to be loved but I also want someone I can love back? Bc forcing something on a guy I'm not sexually attracted to doesn't work

The superior version... Apple Music only has the remastered version.

remastered >

5 minutes ago, California said:

remastered >

Kinda insane I didn't know about Our Darkness though... "Love Is Gonna Save Us" remains a classic even if it loans it a bit!

2 hours ago, Suilen said:

Will be seeing what Alyson Moyet was about and whether Madonna endings were secretly taking place.

An instrumental most pleasing to me

Edited January 28Jan 28 by Graffiti

My heart really has been playing up. And I can't even do anything because my old town won't transfer my files so the heart test I had which shown possible problems according to the results, my asd/adhd assessment and mental heath are all being gate keep

Like I'm having serious health issues right now this is sooo ******. I want to talk to someone to sue there asses but the doctors knows my anxiety and knows I won't do anything about it

I feel so belittled

I like to expand my musical horizons as much as I can but istg I can't get into any of these acclaimed rock bands from the 80s/90s. Why do all their vocalists sound like ****

2 hours ago, Toxic Love said:

I like to expand my musical horizons as much as I can but istg I can't get into any of these acclaimed rock bands from the 80s/90s. Why do all their vocalists sound like ****

Have you listened to this?

Edited January 28Jan 28 by Escape

What an exciting afternoon of sitting at home and moving the mouse on my work laptop every few minutes so my Teams doesn't go idle

11 minutes ago, conatus said:

What an exciting afternoon of sitting at home and moving the mouse on my work laptop every few minutes so my Teams doesn't go idle

Open up a Notepad and set something on top of your 0 on the tenkey so it just types constantly for you Wish I could do that lol

What an absolutely terrible day this has been

whenne next can we expect certain of our MPGs to produce a MV like this, in the natural outside + no plasticky CGI & sheen

Edited January 28Jan 28 by theoghon

7 hours ago, conatus said:

What an exciting afternoon of sitting at home and moving the mouse on my work laptop every few minutes so my Teams doesn't go idle

beep boop beep

Hello, HR?

16 hours ago, skwonderfactory said:

Just a few months ago, I was comfortable in my own skin and even somewhat loved myself after lots of effort as I used to hate myself. Now, I hold self-resentment because I believe I'm a little b**ch who deserves absolutely nothing as I will do nothing to improve my life. Adulting in America f**king sucks and it takes sssooo much effort to get better than I don't want to. Like, I'm just okay putting up with everything because I believe in self-punishment over happiness. I do still have a job and pay bill because I'm attached to someone I hope to marry, yet sometimes I secretly hope things don't work out between us so I end up in more pain that maybe I'll be forced to make progress. And yet, I have never loved someone as much and never will again. I don't know what I want next, other than a job I genuinely enjoy. But what would I "enjoy"? Absolutely nothing sounds appealing, and my mind, body, and spirit do not belong on this plane of existence. Basically everything is terrible, except for the fact that it's not because I'm consistently numb.

I think you need to go on a spiritual journey. It sounds like you have a lot and the perspective needs a slight pivot and you need to forgive yourself more. I literally feel the exact same way (I don't have someone attached so you at least have something going for you! Think about big picture! )

5 hours ago, theoghon said:

whenne next can we expect certain of our MPGs to produce a MV like this, in the natural outside + no plasticky CGI & sheen

I really love that my fave has great taste because I would have been the biggest Lamb had I been born in the 80s I still kind of was with Emancipation era but I want the full experience. What an absolute mother she has always been.

After being mistreated on this site for 18 years it's driving me to post on this forum I signed up for yesterday even though it's ran by Kanye like people if you get my drift. I already know id be more respected there as a stay then bloody here. I'm nearly at breaking point now

They need to remove this downvote button bc I'm apparently having your own option isn't allowed anymore

I've been here for nearly 20 years I don't respect people who I've never in my life seen before or just joined in last 4 years driving me out

I just finished reading the Ciara goes to an hospital thread

I found my new home though i'll still be active in RT and YTT but going to try and post less on atrl

All puppets to the brainwashing.

omg they got a now playing on this new site i'm on and I forgot I added my spotify to it so they probably seeing the death metal song playing between all the kpop and be like WHO TF IS THIS PERSON