I'm sitting by myself on my terrace smoking a joint to calm myself from my family, but i basically had an emotional rage outburst and kinda explode at my aunt when I was cooking holiday filipino soup for them.

my cousin's fiancé placed this big garbage-looking bag in the kitchen with his friends' gifts, which I accidentally put empty plastic containers of raw beef bones and veggie scraps. It kinda stained his presents and i was really empathetic and tried to wipe off some blood that got on the gifts/cleaning, but he kinda raised his voice harshly at me(which i think triggered me).

He's about to leave for work and i told my cousin i didn't want to say bye to him. , and i also forgot my aunt asked me to heat up her pastries prior to cooking, but I forgot to turn on the air fryer and she kinda joked and said,"oh you forgot to heat my bread", to which i said,"oh sorry i was busy cleaning up and doing other ******* **** for you guys" and excused myself to the terrace.

Update: i came in and i apologized to them that I was feeling horrible because that I knew was wrong in what I did, but I took her fiancé's scolding as a trigger for me even though I shouldn't have and that I didn't feel comfortable finishing to cook the soup right now, which they understood and comforted me.

Sorry I needed this emotional outlet

Edited December 25, 2025Dec 25 by fememeist

This is so relatable fr. But i never had an outrage after smoking a joint tbh. It makes me so calm. So whatever happened to you must have been some extreme stuff. Stay strong brother

Just avoid your cousin sis it rly ain't that deep

And next year someone else can cook the soup

Aw holidays are not easy sometimes.

Just smoked a little jush myself

You were just feeling stressed and overwhelmed. I'm glad smoking harmful and mind-altering substances calmed you down and helped you process your feelings in the best way.

He had no right to snap at you, especially as this is not yet his family and he caused the issue in the first place.

Being told off / criticised twice in a row is more than enough to feel upset, no matter how small the criticism was, and especially when you meant no ill will. Still, on the positive side at least you let people express themselves fully not walk on eggshells around you. This is why they feel comfortable saying this to you.

I'm worse around my family. It's good that you took a time-out and came back when you felt more calm, it helped you to deescalate the situation.

54 minutes ago, fememeist said:

I'm sitting by myself on my terrace smoking a joint to calm myself from my family, but i basically had an emotional rage outburst and kinda explode at my aunt when I was cooking holiday filipino soup for them.

my cousin's fiancé placed this big garbage-looking bag in the kitchen with his friends' gifts, which I accidentally put empty plastic containers of raw beef bones and veggie scraps. It kinda stained his presents and i was really empathetic and tried to wipe off some blood that got on the gifts/cleaning, but he kinda raised his voice harshly at me(which i think triggered me).

He's about to leave for work and i told my cousin i didn't want to say bye to him. , and i also forgot my aunt asked me to heat up her pastries prior to cooking, but I forgot to turn on the air fryer and she kinda joked and said,"oh you forgot to heat my bread", to which i said,"oh sorry i was busy cleaning up and doing other ******* **** for you guys" and excused myself to the terrace.

Update: i came in and i apologized to them that I was feeling horrible because that I knew was wrong in what I did, but I took her fiancé's scolding as a trigger for me even though I shouldn't have and that I didn't feel comfortable finishing to cook the soup right now, which they understood and comforted me.

Sorry I needed this emotional outlet

Before weed vs after weed

it's never that serious babe don't let his stress be your stress

nah i would have said more than what you did, you were very reasonable in your reaction.

Swift.

**** that fiancé! you want to bring a garbage bag into the kitchen, yeah it's assumed its you know, garbage. hes a dummy

You do realize none of that would've happened if you were vegan, just saying.

Good sis protect your peace.