22 minutes ago, Bloodflowers. said:

@State of Grace. shoutout to you, I just saw your Lastfm and you got great taste! followed you there

Thanks sis!

 

Lots of legends in your library too

Every time I get drunk I message HIM the weirdest ****. I am so surprised he hasn't blocked me yet

A hot Romanian ATRLer seen my Instagram and messaged me about 2-3 weeks ago. We started talking for a while and now he’s ghosted me and stopped talking to me. 
 

As pathetic as it is, it’s lowkey made me really sad :( I’m not exactly “out” and I’m bisexual and have kinda just given up on women (too many failed relationships). Felt like the first genuine conversation I’ve had with someone where I was completely 100% myself. 
 

I wasn’t expecting anything serious to come of it, but I haven’t gotten any attention from anyone in like a year, I’ve become incredibly anti social (after basically going my whole life of being nothing but social) and it just felt…..nice to get attention again. 
 

Basically: my loneliness that I was content and happy with got triggered and has made me sad and wishing I had attention from someone. My confidence has been in the utter gutter for a while now

1 hour ago, Bears01 said:

A hot Romanian ATRLer seen my Instagram and messaged me about 2-3 weeks ago. We started talking for a while and now he’s ghosted me and stopped talking to me. 
 

As pathetic as it is, it’s lowkey made me really sad :( I’m not exactly “out” and I’m bisexual and have kinda just given up on women (too many failed relationships). Felt like the first genuine conversation I’ve had with someone where I was completely 100% myself. 
 

I wasn’t expecting anything serious to come of it, but I haven’t gotten any attention from anyone in like a year, I’ve become incredibly anti social (after basically going my whole life of being nothing but social) and it just felt…..nice to get attention again. 
 

Basically: my loneliness that I was content and happy with got triggered and has made me sad and wishing I had attention from someone. My confidence has been in the utter gutter for a while now

Damn sorry to hear about that. Don’t beat yourself up about it, this prob a step in right direction to prepare u to meet someone new soon. 

Dating is hard when you respect yourself.

14 minutes ago, Devin said:

Damn sorry to hear about that. Don’t beat yourself up about it, this prob a step in right direction to prepare u to meet someone new soon. 

Thank you  I know it’s absolutely pathetic but it just felt nice to have a full on convo with someone fully being myself 

26 minutes ago, Bears01 said:

Thank you  I know it’s absolutely pathetic but it just felt nice to have a full on convo with someone fully being myself 

Its not pathetic, your human. And any human would feel a similar when having that rare connection and comfortability with someone. You will experience that again. 

15 minutes ago, Devin said:

Its not pathetic, your human. And any human would feel a similar when having that rare connection and comfortability with someone. You will experience that again. 

I thought I had it with my last ex girlfriend (when we first got together, I had nothing but nonstop butterflies in my stomach and just felt like I was walking on air). But things went south and I grew a resenting hatred of her for for many months and it took me a while to move past it. 
 

I don’t know why one day I can just be completely content being alone, then have 1 person make me feel like I need to be needed at the snap of a finger :(

I'm so tempted to go with a The Nightmare Before Christmas theme to justify putting up Christmas decorations.

I wonder what would Madonna think of me.

I saved over my old save with a new intro and it saved into an entire blank video .. I have to re flim it all T_T  like that's going to take 2 days  my computer never backs up so I can't even restore it.

 

that delays Season 5 because it was the first episode of the season that is gone 

plus lost money because I'll have to buy more credits to re do the voices for that episode too

I used to have shіtty headphones for years, yesterday I finally bought new ones and omg I'm SHOOK 

It feels sooooooo different to listen to songs now, I can hear all the little adlibs, back vocals, instrumentals it's insane  Why have I not done this earlier!?

I'm working in IT and tomorrow I'll be doing a very stressful task

if I mess one thing up I might accidentally erase all the data  I should be very careful

Almost finished re recording all my scenes I accidentally replaced last night 

finally deleted instagram today. don't even know why i kept it for so long 

I did not expect to miss my old job SO BAD   god please help me get through this hell before I find something good for me

4 hours ago, stupidjock said:

I did not expect to miss my old job SO BAD   god please help me get through this hell before I find something good for me

I still find myself missing my old job, and then I remember all of the reasons why I left in the first place. If I had stayed, I probably would have flashed out on someone by now. There was so much unnecessary stress and I was so over babysitting adults and customers who so badly want to feel like royalty.

I found out that the hot arab guy who lives on the same floor as me is bi. He was on my dating profile but blocked me  My theory is that he has a gf and doesn't want to get exposed. Today I saw him again. Thank goddess I look hot today!

24 minutes ago, DamianSolo said:

I still find myself missing my old job, and then I remember all of the reasons why I left in the first place. If I had stayed, I probably would have flashed out on someone by now. There was so much unnecessary stress and I was so over babysitting adults and customers who so badly want to feel like royalty.

That’s exactly what I’m doing now cause I work in this private students housing. I’m responsible for 600 students on my shifts  and some of these people can’t even use a microwave without launching fire alarm. I’m in flight or fight even on my free days

12 minutes ago, stupidjock said:

That’s exactly what I’m doing now cause I work in this private students housing. I’m responsible for 600 students on my shifts  and some of these people can’t even use a microwave without launching fire alarm. I’m in flight or fight even on my free days

I used to be in retail management as a store manager, and I just couldn't take it anymore. The older employees were worse than the younger ones, always creating mess and drama and complaining over every little thing. And I was just so over it, especially with the company being as out of touch reality as they were and still are. I'm friends with many former co-managers on Facebook and, at least, once a week one of them is having a meltdown about a situation in their store. I'm so happy I'm out of that circus.

 

I couldn't imagine being responsible for 600 students. The most I've had to be responsible for is roughly 86, or so, employees.

2 hours ago, DamianSolo said:

I used to be in retail management as a store manager, and I just couldn't take it anymore. The older employees were worse than the younger ones, always creating mess and drama and complaining over every little thing. And I was just so over it, especially with the company being as out of touch reality as they were and still are. I'm friends with many former co-managers on Facebook and, at least, once a week one of them is having a meltdown about a situation in their store. I'm so happy I'm out of that circus.

 

I couldn't imagine being responsible for 600 students. The most I've had to be responsible for is roughly 86, or so, employees.

Actually I just got leaked info that tomorrow I will get a call about being accepted to a new job I interviewed for today!!! And it’s public institution so chile

I moved to a new city and got my own place. Life is good. 

3 hours ago, stupidjock said:

Actually I just got leaked info that tomorrow I will get a call about being accepted to a new job I interviewed for today!!! And it’s public institution so chile

That's awesome! Doing what, exactly?

I have cut out so many of my old friends in my life and holy hell does it feel great. 
 

So much less DRAMA, bullshit, etc. I went a few days of feeling sorry for myself and thinking “damn, I miss being in a relationship and having a ton of friends”…..but I’m pretty much back to being happy being left the **** alone again 

I really should start backing up S5  so im not wasting money and time by accidentally deleting one or two