i felt the same until i read into the complete lyrics and some of Roisin's explanations more:
What Not To Do:
Tell me what not to do
(I want to go outside)
Teach me what not to do
Show me, teach me, how to be
Turn me into anything you need
— A dark, meandering, disorienting opener to the album. All about wanting to be instructed, lead, or submissive to someone.
CooCool:
"I've lost it...", muttered as the intro to the song about falling head over heels in love.
The Universe:
"The universe at large is playful and terrifying. There is no discernible sense to it. The story that is always being told is on multiple levels, levels we don’t see or understand. The experience of being alive is to be continually reminded of how utterly unaware we are of what is really going on all around us."
Hurtz So Bad:
Did I ever disappoint you?
Did I disappoint you?
Did I get it wrong?
Did I get it wrong all along?
You were sending signals
You sent certain signals to me
Post me a bomb
And if I open it, I'm gone, gone, gone
Blowing pieces to splinters
He plays me so hard
He plays me like his guitar
He plays me so hard
He plays me like his guitar
— Very specific language here, about feeling guilty and insecure and wounded by the man she loves. Oddly violent lyrics about how he'd been sending "certain signals" and him mailing her a bomb, which would result in her body exploding into tiny fragments, or splinters (since she's "in pieces" already). Also, played so hard/like a guitar ... she's nothing but an object to him. Like her character on the cover, etc.
The House:
— So again, a song based on a couple who move into a psychotropic house affected by mood, previously lived in by a couple involved in a domestic violence murder. (And the woman's husband was the defense lawyer for the murderer.)
Fader:
They won't choke the life out my vain jokes
The fun'll go on, oh, oh yeah
I'll meet my maker sometime a little later
And in the meantime
To you l belong
There's no pain without the gains of feeling something true
— Bear with me, but she paints the first verse with an oddly specific use of the word "choke", then references death, and belonging to someone, because even when it's painful it feels "real" or "true" to her.
Genius breaks down the pre-chorus well:
I'm your favourite baby, this could sustain me
You should play a love song - you can't play a love song, why?
— Implies conflict, or unreturned/withheld love.
Free Will:
One of the most telling tracks, IMO. Almost every lyric applies.
I don't believe in free will
What do you take me for?
Because when it comes right down to it
We really have no choice at all
There goes my autonomy
'Cause you're around
And I am powerless now
Would you give it back to me?
Gimme the feeling that I'm in control?
I can't conceive of free will
When you hold all of the cards
I used to think
I have my own life
I would delude myself
That I was going my own sweet way
Holding on to me
Holding on to you
We don't know how it's going to be
But we just keep holding
And getting into you
You're getting into me
And there is nothing we can do
But to fall right in
Falling into you
Falling into me
I could not foresee
Falling into
When it comes to you
It has been decided
I don't have a choice
But to fall right into you
Ain't no such thing as a free will
Maybe we're just all blowing in the wind
Call it fate or a destiny
I've come to terms with it getting the better of me
You Knew:
Don't come the innocent boy
Admit that you've got your motives
You knew exactly what motivates me
I bеlieve the rеcord will show this
You knew
— All about frustration/confrontation/emotional imbalance/power dynamics between two people.
Can't Replicate:
The things that you know about me
Nobody else knows about
There's a place where you are reach into me
Nobody else goes there
You must see something within me
And nobody else sees it, no
It's odd I should run into you
Just as I'm getting ready to run away
I was waiting for something, that thing is you
But, baby, you found me, before I found you
I let you see deep beneath the secret
Believe me, I eat, I sleep it
I need you, so don't you keep it
I love you
— Kind of trippy lyrics here about deep secrets, someone keeping tabs on her, planning on running away, codependency, knowing she can't replace him because he knows her too well or too much, there's no one else like him, etc. Idk. It's a bop, though.
Two Ways:
I'm not gonna fly into another rage
Not tonight
I don’t wanna kill you with the fright
I don't wanna kill you with it
I know you could deal with it
Put a little feeling in it
Dive down in it
I'm gonna let you drown in it
Every secret's safe with me
Baby, this'll stay between
You and me for forever
Take it to another level
Ah, just ways to make you smile
In my mind
Ah, two victims of our time
Take me back
Ah, hard mountains left to climb
But I'm going out like that
Ah, two ways to pass the time
In my life
— Again, shadowy lyrics with coded language like "rage", "fright", "kill", "drown", "victims", keeping secrets, death, escalation, and making a pact with someone to stay quiet, even if they only have "hard mountains left to climb" and she's "going out like that".
The scrapped artwork for this track is pretty telling, too:
Eureka:
Just cut away
Like I'm made of clay
What the doctor said
When you're underway
Just cut away
Like I'm made of clay
You can see
That there's something 'bout me
If there's a cure, I'd take it all
Just put me out
In the darkness
Take this thing
From me
I don’t need a love that is dead and gone
— I actually find this the hardest song to listen to because it makes me feel so weird/unsettled. But anyway, she uses a mysterious, scary health condition (in this case, likely a cancerous growth or tumor) as a metaphor for her relationship. She uses blunt, graphic language like "just cut away like I'm made of clay", which possibly shows how numb she's become to violence.
Feel free to make fun of me, but I think the album's lyrics/themes are really interesting and were completely overlooked due to the controversy. The singles did a good job at throwing people off to make it seem like an upbeat summery album, but I'm of the opinion there's wayyyy more here under the surface. The whole album makes me feel kind of uneasy now, tbh. I still enjoy it, though.