Hanami-Blossom

I don't want to be rude but songwriting does not solve everything. Why should I not speak up about this? And I don't see it as unnecessary.

@JacksonWhat confused me about your post is that I didn't know if it is just a joke or you were mocking me. It really set me off. Remmy posted something similar but I could tell it was sarcastic and ironic. I really didn't want to escalate the situation. It is true that gaslighting a huge thing with Mandela Effects, so it really riled me up. I'm not doing anything dangerous. I wanted to share my experiences and see if there are other people out there like me. It's tough feeling like I have to always be on the defensive. I apologise for exploding at you, and please don't feel bad about this.

I wouldn't mind continuing to participate in the game. I just don't want to be targeted for having different opinions. This is why I didn't want to get too personal in this game. I'm still hurting, honestly.

It's not really about racism. It's about boxes that people are put in. Racism is something that is "approved" and used as a tool. Society says it is okay to get angry about racism because politicians use it to control people. But medical discrimination where people aren't allowed to buy food because they did not take vaccines is not "approved" by the system to speak out about and if you say one word out of line, you are completely thrown to the side. It's like... Why do people settle for this kind of world? It's a shame because I did love participating in this game but I just feel so angry and upset right now. It is easy to paint me as the villain and I don't want to play that part. I just don't feel respected online or in real life. A lot of my posts I post them from my intuition, I feel like they can help someone. Also I don't want you or anyone else to feel bad. I didn't say this before because I was just so angry (and still am) but I truly understand how difficult OCD is and I'm proud that you are recovering OCD is not the person and is not something we should allow to control us. Remember who you are at the core. I'm happy that I found someone to relate to because it is so crippling and isolating but pretty much everyone experiences intrusive thoughts. My entire time in this game I really tried to avoid being THAT person who gets messy and fights with people, I tried to control it but somehow it ended up like this

Thank you. Although I disagree with that one point. The world actively censors and discriminates against certain types of people. And that has nothing to do with OCD I deal with I'm just tired of people talking to me like I'm a political "game" for them to defeat and not actually hearing the humanity and freedom that I am radiating. It's difficult when knowing so much about the corruption of the system of this world and it hurts when people just pile onto me. I am not going to pretend I believe in something that I don't believe in.

I have to leave this game. It was nice participating for the short while it lasted but I'm not here to argue about the reality I know in my heart to be true. Thank you, goodbye.

Imagine waking up and the Earth that you grew up in keeps changing. I'm supposed to keep that to myself? No, I am going to find out what's going on here and see if others relate. "Misinformation" is a trap to shut down anyone who says anything different. It feels like a ******* slap in the face when the internet is so censored and controlled, while me sharing my experiences with reality itself is labeled as "spreading misinformation". I was going to keep quiet but I think even more now than ever it is important for my voice to be heard. I shouldn't have to hide my truth away because the world around me tells me to shut up. No one can tell me that MY experiences are not true because the world reflects back something different. If I came from another timeline, of course things will be different.

When you try to avoid having altercations but somehow it still ends up happening @Jackson I don't want any hard feelings between us but if you cannot understand why your post would upset me then I might have to put you on ignore. I'm not the kind of person who is fine with living under a dictatorship and accepting an illusion of freedom inside a box. Am I supposed to pretend I believe in something when I don't? If I remember growing up in a world where it was spelled Kit-Kat, I shouldn't share that? It's already isolating enough, I shouldn't share my experiences with Mandela Effects to see if others have similar experiences? All this "debunking" really annoys me.

Talking about my experiences with reality itself is not misinformation. Have fun being narrow-minded, I'm not a punching bag. And before you reply, yes I'm taking this seriously because I'm not going to put up with stupidity and trendy buzzwords because my thoughts and opinions don't adhere with what other people think should be the main narrative. It may be a little cute meme but striking down people who are actually thinking for themselves freely can lead to murky waters. Now you may not have had bad intentions with this post but I'm honestly sick of people coming out of the woodworks whenever people talk about something interesting or outside the box. Everything has to be approved by the system and I don't have any loyalty to that. Originally I wasn't going to respond to this post but I'm not feeling like keeping quiet. I knew at least one person was going to reply like this.

People DID pay way too much attention to me in high school but with this for me it's definitely not an anxiety thing. It happens when I feel anxious, when I don't feel anxious and these people don't look at anyone else but me. It's definitely something else. I think it can be easy to blame ourselves for something when really, it really isn't my fault why these people are staring at me from a mile away. I'm not going to say that my anxiety is the explanation for this when it really isn't. I think society and people really love to blame an individual person when really it is a problem with the masses and the system. I'm honestly tired of feeling like I have to take the blame and be the scapegoat for other people's issues. Whew, I needed to get this off my chest! I might have been snappy/sassy at you but I've dealt with a lot of gaslighting when it's about this kind of stuff and I'm kind of over it because I know my intuition is strong, I know how observant I am and I know how abnormal the masses behave acting like the way they behave is "normal" when it isn't so I definitely love to stand my ground and not surrender to what would be more accepted by others when it doesn't align with my truth. This is just my take on it and my experiences, even though we share similar outlooks and experiences it's not going to be exactly the same. I don't want to make you feel invalidated for how you may see it or experience it. I really don't want to make you feel bad It's honestly really tough to stand your ground in a way that does not come across like I'm being snappy at the other person (especially when the overthinking kicks in and honestly when I'm feeling pissed off ), but it's something I'm working on and trying to figure out But also at the same time I kind of do want to be a little snappy/sassy. Like... why should I have to be perfectly nice all the time? I have many layers and I get angry sometimes. But I don't want to make someone else feel horrible either. Like... it's difficult to pretend that I'm fine when I'm actually angry and why SHOULD I pretend anyway? Oop! I'm really trying to learn how to respond to what the person is saying rather than going after the person themselves. It's actually more difficult than people think! I legit haven't talked or interacted with people in YEARS. Everything that has gone on the past two years has made it really difficult for me to interact with people when so many people literally want to force me to take something I don't want to and you don't know to what extent people could let this go on for. It's kind of made me feel bitter towards people even though I have so much love and compassion for everyone, I'm one of those people who feels sorry for murderers but my heart has been trampled on so much. My heart has actually felt hardened the past year but thankfully it's gradually opening up again. Honestly talking and interacting with you has helped me a lot, thank you. It can be difficult sometimes communicating back and forth, and sometimes this thing happens when I start getting annoyed at the person that I connect with and talk to quite well but overall I'm really grateful. One of the worst parts about OCD is that it uses the people and the things that you care about against you so it's quite a maze to try and navigate through. OCD can make you feel like you're a terrible person, but I know it's not true I always feel like my posts have to be perfect and I edit them so much, I don't want to make other people feel bad and I want to make sure everything I'm saying is accurate

@fountain@Aurora Do we get scored higher if we submit a finished song and lower if we submit a song that is not finished?

It feels nice though when I come across someone I can CLICK with. I can sense their energy, I think we're out here giving supermodel vibes tbh People's energy that I click with outside usually stand out and they're not afraid to wear brighter colours like me! I don't even talk to them or approach them but it's like they feel familiar and stand out more to me, but they are also complete strangers. They usually walk by themselves too. They're not usually with someone else tbh. It's like the majority of people follow the same patterns and can feel almost "programmed", but people like me can often disrupt that.

I literally live in London It drives me crazy because London has so many people and it happens all the time. It's definitely not a narcissistic trait for me. These people look at NO ONE, as soon as they pass me... they LOOK to the side at me while continuing to walk and then look forward again. I'm very observant and these people literally do not look at each other except for me They don't really give me dirty looks either or a "good" look. It's the same for me too, they just look. They don't even know what I look like yet and their heads turn towards me like they're robots. It's like they can sense my energy. The thing is many people look at me but at the same time many people also treat me like I'm invisible. I feel like I'm a glitch in this simulation sometimes. Everyone walks past each other like it all fits and then I come along and girl, I have to walk with the cars because these fashionistas won't give me any space on the pavement. What is hilarious is when a guy is holding hands with his girlfriend and he looks at me, like ??? Like the guys want to look superior and make me "envious" of them or they are more interested in me. A whole mess. I'm so fed up with people.

Yes! Life is STRANGE Does this happen to anyone else? Whenever I go outside or I'm around people, people will just stare at me. They won't stare at anyone else. They stare at me. Like... I know I look good and I STOMP the pavement but... Even when I try to blend in more and not stand out, people always focus on me. It's like they're looking at an alien. I'll literally be sitting on a bench and someone is riding their bicycle on the road in front of me and they will turn their head to side, not looking at the road in front of them. Like *****! These people would rather stare at me than watch the road ahead of them. It's so freaky! Another thing is that I've noticed like the same 3 people walk by me in the same park or sit next to me on the same bench bench. It happens roughly in the same area btw, but the area is like almost 2km from where I live. Sometimes they say hello to me or smile at me, one of them just sits next to me on the bench on their phone or reading a newspaper. And they are complete STRANGERS. I don't know ha! I've seen all 3 people at least twice.

The thread title serving Chik-Fil-A > Chic-Fil-A > Chick-Fil-A Next morning we're gonna wake up and the name is literally gonna be Filet-O-Fish Chick-Fil-A is so stupid. The whole point was the fact that it was spelled Chik.