discussion The Depression Lounge

[PMKARDASHIAN]

6 minutes ago, cyclone said:

Have yall ever tried psychedelics as an alternative to anti depressants?

I’ve done shrooms a handful of times, and while immediately after the effects seemed to be beneficial, they were never long term. 

[cyclone]

4 minutes ago, PMKARDASHIAN said:

I recently moved states to be with my boyfriend and am commuting back and forth for work.

we’ve been fighting a lot, and as a result, his friends (who I assumed after 8 months were mine as well) have all abandoned me

I feel this. A lot of the time I feel i'm overly dependant on my man and hes my whole world. I am scared to get close to his friends because of this, like what if something happens and they have to pick a side. its just so awkward 

 

4 minutes ago, PMKARDASHIAN said:

I’ve done shrooms a handful of times, and while immediately after the effects seemed to be beneficial, they were never long term. 

I've heard abt this a lot too, although i'm seeing more stuff about people microdosing and having their outlooks on life changed. If i get bored i thibk ima give it a try

[Qmhp]

My bf broke up with me 8 months ago, and he  called me last weekend to tell me that he wanted to talk with me but I know that he was drunk and just wanted to f***, after I refused he blocked me again. That was my first relationship of the last 5 years and I don’t know If I will be able to try it again with someone new :( 

+ i lost my Job and i feel like a useless loser 

Edited August 11, 2022 by Qmhp

[JoeAg]

well... I got my humanities school GPA up yesterday with my final A in a class, but my general cumulative GPA somehow did not get raised to the degree it was supposed to. I emailed my advisor today but i've pretty much been wallowing and getting high constantly for the past few days being that I don't yet have my diploma and I don't yet have a job in this city I just moved to  I really want him to help me out tomorrow but idk what's gonna happen! it's so stressful dude

[JoeAg]

I thought graduating was a sure thing and that it'd just be way easier...

[JoeAg]

12 minutes ago, Qmhp said:

My bf broke up with me 8 months ago, and he  called me last weekend to tell me that he wanted to talk with me but I know that he was drunk and just wanted to f***, after I refused he blocked me again. That was my first relationship of the last 5 years and I don’t know I will be able to try it again with someone new :( 

+ i lost my Job and i feel like a useless loser 

ugh i'm sorry about this

it's never fun having an ex like that who just wants to f*ck and isn't properly empathetic. you deserve better. i think it's important to focus on oneself after something like that happens, and there's nothing wrong with you for taking all the time you need

 

also, I lost two jobs this year so I feel for you 

[Sergi91]

@Lee!! Can you please update the message with the new phone number:  

Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: 9-8-8 

[bliaz]

Maybe one day I'll get up the nerve to post a little bit about how shitty my life has been. In the meantime, here's a person to talk to if you need to. I send you lots of hugs.

[Winged]

I wanted to kill myself back in Feb.

The next day I went to the GP and asked for any help he could possibly give me…

After 6 months I feel like I’m getting control over my life 

 

 

[saucy]

14 hours ago, Winged said:

I wanted to kill myself back in Feb.

The next day I went to the GP and asked for any help he could possibly give me…

After 6 months I feel like I’m getting control over my life 

 

 

glad you're doing better now 

 

 

 

I've been in a slump. I was doing so well a couple months ago, but now this recurring health problem that I have to wait over a month to see the specialist for...and constant rejections for the jobs i've applied to are really starting to get to me. I'd just like something to go my way. It feels like I already lost so much of my youth to mental illness and now that i'm on an upward trajectory something happens to knock me down again. 

[Jotham]

2 hours ago, saucy said:

I've been in a slump. I was doing so well a couple months ago, but now this recurring health problem that I have to wait over a month to see the specialist for...and constant rejections for the jobs i've applied to are really starting to get to me. I'd just like something to go my way. It feels like I already lost so much of my youth to mental illness and now that i'm on an upward trajectory something happens to knock me down again. 

I relate to this so much. I feel like I'm losing so much of my twenties to anxiety and depression, and I've also been struggling with the job search for a while. I've been job searching on and off since spring and finally got an offer around June, but then I got notified in July that the offer had been rescinded (they told me that they were only hiring local, even though I told them in my first interview where I lived and they told me at first that there were remote options ). Since my offer has been rescinded, I've had very little energy to apply to jobs again. I'm just trying to tell myself that it's okay to be in this process (especially with a recession going on, it's perfectly normal to feel this way) and that it's important to forgive and take care of myself for the struggles I've been having throughout my twenties.

[BigBangStan]

Having anxiety and not able to sleep is a mess and i have to go college later too. 

[saucy]

6 hours ago, Jotham said:

I relate to this so much. I feel like I'm losing so much of my twenties to anxiety and depression, and I've also been struggling with the job search for a while. I've been job searching on and off since spring and finally got an offer around June, but then I got notified in July that the offer had been rescinded (they told me that they were only hiring local, even though I told them in my first interview where I lived and they told me at first that there were remote options ). Since my offer has been rescinded, I've had very little energy to apply to jobs again. I'm just trying to tell myself that it's okay to be in this process (especially with a recession going on, it's perfectly normal to feel this way) and that it's important to forgive and take care of myself for the struggles I've been having throughout my twenties.

Job hunting is such a horrible process. And it gets so demoralising when you can't find something. I totally understand you. Hopefully a better offer comes through for you ♥️ 

 

I'm trying not to let it get to me too much. I only graduated recently so it's not like I've been unemployed for long. But I feel like at my age I should be at a different life stage and I just get so angsty. 

[fountain]

On 8/11/2022 at 6:53 AM, JoeAg said:

well... I got my humanities school GPA up yesterday with my final A in a class, but my general cumulative GPA somehow did not get raised to the degree it was supposed to. I emailed my advisor today but i've pretty much been wallowing and getting high constantly for the past few days being that I don't yet have my diploma and I don't yet have a job in this city I just moved to  I really want him to help me out tomorrow but idk what's gonna happen! it's so stressful dude

Hoping that it went okay

[Ascareus Kratos]

On 8/11/2022 at 12:41 PM, Qmhp said:

My bf broke up with me 8 months ago, and he  called me last weekend to tell me that he wanted to talk with me but I know that he was drunk and just wanted to f***, after I refused he blocked me again. That was my first relationship of the last 5 years and I don’t know If I will be able to try it again with someone new :( 

+ i lost my Job and i feel like a useless loser 

Hopefully you will be better ☺️

[ProfessorNinja]

I thought I was depressed,

 

but it turns out my circle just was not right for me.

 

Cut ties with everyone and I feel ten years younger, again.

 

change in environment can help you immensely girlies 

Edited August 17, 2022 by ProfessorNinja

[Aethereal]

Those past days have been exhausting and horrible I really hope tomorrow it will be better. I am very paranoid and tired.

I am watching a movie right now to help myself. 

[Pop Life]

On 8/16/2022 at 11:02 PM, ProfessorNinja said:

I thought I was depressed,

 

but it turns out my circle just was not right for me.

 

Cut ties with everyone and I feel ten years younger, again.

 

change in environment can help you immensely girlies 

Love that for you 

 

Sometimes you just have to stop watering dead plants. Just be careful not to over-isolate

[The Witch]

Chile, I feel so lonely....

[Grumpy Cat]

i had like 15 ice cold showers so far, smoked so much cigarettes i dont feel my vocal cords, cried, was angry, confused and i need my internet taken away from me lol

 

 

i plan on falling asleep and idgaf for how long.

 

the only thing why im still kinda ok is that this is the 3rd day i havent eaten anything and basically the only thing i have control over. im in so much pain and i still have the temperature so even my dad, the cheapest ******* in the world said yes- you can go to a private hospital and get the surgery to get all that fixed

 

i'll never ever go anywhere alone. i hate people. i hate this planet.i wanna drink gin, watch it burn while laughing and crying in physical pain at the same time.

 

 

 

 

[Joyride]

34 minutes ago, Grumpy Cat said:

i had like 15 ice cold showers so far, smoked so much cigarettes i dont feel my vocal cords, cried, was angry, confused and i need my internet taken away from me lol

 

 

i plan on falling asleep and idgaf for how long.

 

the only thing why im still kinda ok is that this is the 3rd day i havent eaten anything and basically the only thing i have control over. im in so much pain and i still have the temperature so even my dad, the cheapest ******* in the world said yes- you can go to a private hospital and get the surgery to get all that fixed

 

i'll never ever go anywhere alone. i hate people. i hate this planet.i wanna drink gin, watch it burn while laughing and crying in physical pain at the same time.

need this soooooo ******* badly, whenever my depression gets too bad I cannot sleep and my meds stopped working weeks ago - feels like I'm back in square one and after these past couple of weeks i just wanna switch off and call it a day

[Joyride]

I don't know if anyone else here can relate but you can kinda "tell" when things are gonna get bad, and it's been like that for me for the past couple of weeks, I noticed my meds stopped working once they stopped making me sleepy, especially because I take them at night and use as sleeping aid as well, and I have not been able to get sleep any sleep for weeks, maybe one or two hours a night if I get lucky.

 

now, with very little sleep and this overwhelming feeling of... just too much in every aspect of my life things start to get tricky and that's when the suicidal thoughts come into place. very sneaky. it's not this sudden rush of wanting to kill myself, but rather disappear or switch off so I could wake up when everything is okay with me and I know, deeply and sadly that's that is not coming true for me anytime soon, so I'm feeling a little overwhelmed and hopeless at the moment.

 

hope everyone gets through their stuff.

[TheArgonaut]

Hey everyone, how are you guys doing? 
 

[Grumpy Cat]

57 minutes ago, TheArgonaut said:

Hey everyone, how are you guys doing? 
 

dead inside, thank you for your concern

[Solaria]

It's really exhausing to keep up with daily life. I have no idea how there are people who have a social life, go to school, have a sidejob, time for hobbies etc without completely collapsing. I get overwhelmed at the tiniest things. This isn't a way of living