Jackson Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 wow, i didnโt expect that at all ย congrats @Achilles.ย too, thatโs an insane score ย and obviously thanks judges!ย
Achilles. Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 ย ย Well itโs still a repeak even if I didnโt score my second career #1.
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 ย And once again to close out this results show I want to say a huge thank you and a congratulations to everybody, you truly blew us away this round with your submissions. The talent jumped out and I hope you can see that reflected in your scores and can appreciate that!... especially since it'll be the last time you see your song scores before the finalย ย No but seriously, thank you for an amazing round ย it was a pleasure to read what you created.
Achilles. Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 2 minutes ago, Jackson said: wow, i didnโt expect that at all ย congrats @Achilles.ย too, thatโs an insane score ย and obviously thanks judges!ย Thanks! Congrats to you too! Your consistent slayage in PH is the stuff of legend I fear. ย Speaking of. I canโt remember. Did you win PH8, or was that likeโฆ Aurora or Temporal or someone?
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 Just now, Achilles. said: Thanks! Congrats to you too! Your consistent slayage in PH is the stuff of legend I fear. ย Speaking of. I canโt remember. Did you win PH8, or was that likeโฆ Aurora or Temporal or someone? Jackson won DH, I believe Temporal won PH8 (?)
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 @Jacksonย @Achilles.ย @GentleDance, as the top 3 you've also respectively earned your Gold, Silver and Bronze Hit Tokens! @Auroraย will be in touch to fulfil these for you when he is back onlineย
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 I can't make a fancy table like Aurora but I'll post a recap now anywayย
Achilles. Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 3 minutes ago, fountain said: Jackson won DH, I believe Temporal won PH8 (?) Yeah thatโs what I thought but I wasnโt completely sure.ย ย I was gonna say, if Jackson did win PH8 this would be the second time he blocked me from the top spot. ย ย ย
Remmy Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 Whew an excellent top 5 ย Congrats to you all, especially Jackson for getting raves & at least one 10/10!
diamondsky Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 22 minutes ago, fountain said: ย Having a party at 4th place is... ย ย ย Reveal hidden contents @โlexย with an average score of 9.03 ย Congrats on getting a 9! Amazing job this round, I loved reading your song and clearly so did the other judges! Great job and I hope you are proud of yourself ย ย Thank you so muchย ย Iโm elated to be in this top 5
Jackson Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 12 minutes ago, Achilles. said: Yeah thatโs what I thought but I wasnโt completely sure.ย ย I was gonna say, if Jackson did win PH8 this would be the second time he blocked me from the top spot. ย ย ย i was a judge in PH8 ย 5 minutes ago, โlex said: Will the winners be sharing lyrics? iโll share mine in a minute, iโm just on mobile rnย
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 ย Round 3 Rankings ย 1. @Jackson - Il Diavolo e Dio - 9.47 2. @Achilles. - The End of the World - 9.23 3. @GentleDance- You've Settled - 9.1 4. @โlex - Weekenders - 9.03 5. @Euterpe - A Nymph's Campfire Tale - 8.9 6. @DatChickDoe - Days Spill on Like Blood - 8.73 7. @Arrows - I Hope You're Satisfied Now - 8.63 8. @Jessie - The Sense of an Ending - 8.6 9. @mxtthewdelrey - The Lease - 8.47 10. @8thPrince - Whipping Post - 8.43 11. @hurricane326 - Fight - 8.37 12. @Legend E - Joke - 8.2 13. @Augmented - The Aisle - 8.17 13. @Prisoner - Crying in the back of a cab, and you're not. - 8.17 15. @Remmy - Nonstop Hardcore - 8.13 16. @Hug - mm - 8.1 17. @OreGuy - Simple as Red - 7.97 18. @JoeAg - Maladjusted - 7.8 19. @Better Mistakesย - You Have Changed Me - 7.63 20. @TruGemini - Fill - 7.57 20. @Tylerbv - Running in Circles - 7.57 22. @EpicSongFan - Illusion of Lovin' You - 7.33 23. @Insanity - Distraction - 6.96 24. @Julia Fox - endrophy - 6.83 ย Fantastic round everybody be proud of what you have created here!
Remmy Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 Oop I wasn't able to escape the bottom 10 ย But I know plenty of people overperformed this round
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 second post is all up to date with links to everything relevant! ย for anybody who might not be sure i'm referring to this post here: ย On 5/11/2022 at 11:12 PM, fountain said: Round 1: The Element Challenge Challenge Aurora's reviewsย / Element's reviews / fountain's reviews Live Results Ranking Top Three Tokens ย ย Round 2: The Studio Session Challenge Challenge Aurora's reviews / Element's reviews / fountain's reviews Live Results Ranking Top Three Tokens ย ย Round 3: The ATW10MVTVFTV Challenge Challenge Aurora's reviews / Element's reviews / fountain's reviews Live Results Ranking ย ย Round 4: The Queer Pride Challenge Challenge Aurora's reviews / Element's reviews / fountain's reviews Live Results Ranking ย ย Round 5 Challenge Aurora's reviews / Element's reviews / fountain's reviews Live Results Ranking ย ย Round 6 Challenge Aurora's reviews / Element's reviews / fountain's reviews Live Results Ranking you can always look back on it as it is kept updated with anything you might need or want to find
Achilles. Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 15 minutes ago, โlex said: Will the winners be sharing lyrics? If I didnโt win does that mean I donโt have to share?ย ย 9 minutes ago, Jackson said: i was a judge in PH8 ย I like it better when you judge because you win too much when you play.
Jackson Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 My song:ย ย ย ย ย ย Il Diavolo e Dio ย Intro Hello friend, benvenuto to my life Each stroke of pen will show you fragments of my mind From yellowed pages of my younger times A manifesto to who I am inside A pious boy from southern Italy Traveling through the rough cobblestone streets Until I make each man in Rome believe That praising Godโs our only destiny So please readโฆ ย Verse I wake each day and say a little prayer in my heart Cause God is good and no one should be left without his charm I walk the road to lead me home and talk to all who pass Though most avoid me I feel joy each time I see them dash Even if they only hear my word from far away I know the spirit touches them in its own special way And so I hum a hymn of praise and proclaim earthly pleas To save these lowly sinners as God once had rescued me ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, sing him praises until Iโm On my knees, then repeat and Iโll keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Verse I read the news and see confused souls seeking mortal sin Their evil deeds will only lead to blackened souls within Shoot every shot like they forgot the Father gave them life So he sends plagues until theyโve paid the price that He provides Even if they only hear his word in muffled calls I hope one day theyโll recognize that he could save them all Robbers, crooks, and deviants, and those who lie with man I know that God can save them all if they follow his plan ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, sing him praises until Iโm On my knees, then repeat and Iโll keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Bridge Sometimes I take the road to Rome, seeing cities burn to bones See the people suffering and I wish that I was home In my mind I still believe God is good so why does he Let good people suffer while he lives immortal life of luxury? Maybe Iโm not good enough if I donโt believe his love Heals all strife but I can see it when the lightning strikes above I see people keel in pain, taking the Lordโs name in vain And I wonder whatโs the purpose again? ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, but I still donโt know if I Still believe, but maybe if I keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening But Iโll never earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Verse Itโs like I have awakened for the first time I see the Earth in technicolor with new eyes Narcotized emotions take control And voices beckon me towards a new goal Maybe Godโs a puppet master pulling all our strings He sets fire to the Earth because he delights in suffering If Iโm not his child Iโm just a sycophant Maybe Iโm ready to follow my own footprints ย Alternate Chorus Harmonies of hallelujah fall flat Why would I sing praises to a psychopath? Only narcissists believe immortal life Could ever be more than eternal strife Now I know of heavenโs fraud One that I had spread abroad And it only stops by killing God ย Verse Mia madre says she worries for my sanity Like God hasnโt destroyed the Earthโs sanctity Mio padre says I should take my medicine And if I keep on spiraling Iโm dead to him But why would I take pills to numb the rage? If feeling somethingโs crazy maybe Iโm insane Something in my head says I should go Take a knife and take the road to Rome ย Alternate Chorus Harmonies of hallelujah fall flat Why would I sing praises to a psychopath? Only narcissists believe immortal life Could ever be more than eternal strife Now I know of heavenโs fraud One that I had spread abroad And it only stops by killing God ย Bridge I stumble around the Vatican, feeling frenzy in my eyes Blurred faces fill the spaces I shuffle past The rage consumes me faster I thrust the wooden doors of the Sistine open I feel its fabled frescoes mocking me God reaches out to Adam on the ceiling Beginning manโs torment Prenda anche del frutto dellโalbero della vita E ne mangi, e viva in perpetuo Enslaved to sing his praises eternally ย I feel the paint envelop me Iโm taken to heaven in a chariot of acrylic blues Angels encircle me, singing tunes and tributes I hear fear in the cracks in their voices Millenia of stolen harmonies sweep the clouds And I see God now His outstretched arms extend toward me Il diavolo e Dio, a tetralogy of malice I unsheath my blade and say a prayer to myself ย Chorus Sang Hallelujah to on High, but now I know that I I believe in nothing and the truth is deafening I convicted the king, killed a crook and now he bleeds Jesus falls at my feet Heaven dims like candlelight And falls into a silent night God is dead and my world fades to white ย
diamondsky Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 4 minutes ago, Achilles. said: If I didnโt win does that mean I donโt have to share?ย You better share kingย
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 3 minutes ago, Jackson said: My song:ย ย ย ย Hide contents ย ย Il Diavolo e Dio ย Intro Hello friend, benvenuto to my life Each stroke of pen will show you fragments of my mind From yellowed pages of my younger times A manifesto to who I am inside A pious boy from southern Italy Traveling through the rough cobblestone streets Until I make each man in Rome believe That praising Godโs our only destiny So please readโฆ ย Verse I wake each day and say a little prayer in my heart Cause God is good and no one should be left without his charm I walk the road to lead me home and talk to all who pass Though most avoid me I feel joy each time I see them dash Even if they only hear my word from far away I know the spirit touches them in its own special way And so I hum a hymn of praise and proclaim earthly pleas To save these lowly sinners as God once had rescued me ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, sing him praises until Iโm On my knees, then repeat and Iโll keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Verse I read the news and see confused souls seeking mortal sin Their evil deeds will only lead to blackened souls within Shoot every shot like they forgot the Father gave them life So he sends plagues until theyโve paid the price that He provides Even if they only hear his word in muffled calls I hope one day theyโll recognize that he could save them all Robbers, crooks, and deviants, and those who lie with man I know that God can save them all if they follow his plan ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, sing him praises until Iโm On my knees, then repeat and Iโll keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Bridge Sometimes I take the road to Rome, seeing cities burn to bones See the people suffering and I wish that I was home In my mind I still believe God is good so why does he Let good people suffer while he lives immortal life of luxury? Maybe Iโm not good enough if I donโt believe his love Heals all strife but I can see it when the lightning strikes above I see people keel in pain, taking the Lordโs name in vain And I wonder whatโs the purpose again? ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, but I still donโt know if I Still believe, but maybe if I keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening But Iโll never earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Verse Itโs like I have awakened for the first time I see the Earth in technicolor with new eyes Narcotized emotions take control And voices beckon me towards a new goal Maybe Godโs a puppet master pulling all our strings He sets fire to the Earth because he delights in suffering If Iโm not his child Iโm just a sycophant Maybe Iโm ready to follow my own footprints ย Alternate Chorus Harmonies of hallelujah fall flat Why would I sing praises to a psychopath? Only narcissists believe immortal life Could ever be more than eternal strife Now I know of heavenโs fraud One that I had spread abroad And it only stops by killing God ย Verse Mia madre says she worries for my sanity Like God hasnโt destroyed the Earthโs sanctity Mio padre says I should take my medicine And if I keep on spiraling Iโm dead to him But why would I take pills to numb the rage? If feeling somethingโs crazy maybe Iโm insane Something in my head says I should go Take a knife and take the road to Rome ย Alternate Chorus Harmonies of hallelujah fall flat Why would I sing praises to a psychopath? Only narcissists believe immortal life Could ever be more than eternal strife Now I know of heavenโs fraud One that I had spread abroad And it only stops by killing God ย Bridge I stumble around the Vatican, feeling frenzy in my eyes Blurred faces fill the spaces I shuffle past The rage consumes me faster I thrust the wooden doors of the Sistine open I feel its fabled frescoes mocking me God reaches out to Adam on the ceiling Beginning manโs torment Prenda anche del frutto dellโalbero della vita E ne mangi, e viva in perpetuo Enslaved to sing his praises eternally ย I feel the paint envelop me Iโm taken to heaven in a chariot of acrylic blues Angels encircle me, singing tunes and tributes I hear fear in the cracks in their voices Millenia of stolen harmonies sweep the clouds And I see God now His outstretched arms extend toward me Il diavolo e Dio, a tetralogy of malice I unsheath my blade and say a prayer to myself ย Chorus Sang Hallelujah to on High, but now I know that I I believe in nothing and the truth is deafening I convicted the king, killed a crook and now he bleeds Jesus falls at my feet Heaven dims like candlelight And falls into a silent night God is dead and my world fades to white ย I meanโฆ just genius ย
diamondsky Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 5 minutes ago, Jackson said: My song:ย ย ย ย Reveal hidden contents ย ย Il Diavolo e Dio ย Intro Hello friend, benvenuto to my life Each stroke of pen will show you fragments of my mind From yellowed pages of my younger times A manifesto to who I am inside A pious boy from southern Italy Traveling through the rough cobblestone streets Until I make each man in Rome believe That praising Godโs our only destiny So please readโฆ ย Verse I wake each day and say a little prayer in my heart Cause God is good and no one should be left without his charm I walk the road to lead me home and talk to all who pass Though most avoid me I feel joy each time I see them dash Even if they only hear my word from far away I know the spirit touches them in its own special way And so I hum a hymn of praise and proclaim earthly pleas To save these lowly sinners as God once had rescued me ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, sing him praises until Iโm On my knees, then repeat and Iโll keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Verse I read the news and see confused souls seeking mortal sin Their evil deeds will only lead to blackened souls within Shoot every shot like they forgot the Father gave them life So he sends plagues until theyโve paid the price that He provides Even if they only hear his word in muffled calls I hope one day theyโll recognize that he could save them all Robbers, crooks, and deviants, and those who lie with man I know that God can save them all if they follow his plan ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, sing him praises until Iโm On my knees, then repeat and Iโll keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Bridge Sometimes I take the road to Rome, seeing cities burn to bones See the people suffering and I wish that I was home In my mind I still believe God is good so why does he Let good people suffer while he lives immortal life of luxury? Maybe Iโm not good enough if I donโt believe his love Heals all strife but I can see it when the lightning strikes above I see people keel in pain, taking the Lordโs name in vain And I wonder whatโs the purpose again? ย Chorus Sing Hallelujah to on High, but I still donโt know if I Still believe, but maybe if I keep serenading Sing convictions to the king, crooning carols endlessly Maybe then Iโll earn a seat at Jesusโs feet Hoping heaven hears my pleas Hoping God is listening But Iโll never earn a seat at Jesusโs feet ย Verse Itโs like I have awakened for the first time I see the Earth in technicolor with new eyes Narcotized emotions take control And voices beckon me towards a new goal Maybe Godโs a puppet master pulling all our strings He sets fire to the Earth because he delights in suffering If Iโm not his child Iโm just a sycophant Maybe Iโm ready to follow my own footprints ย Alternate Chorus Harmonies of hallelujah fall flat Why would I sing praises to a psychopath? Only narcissists believe immortal life Could ever be more than eternal strife Now I know of heavenโs fraud One that I had spread abroad And it only stops by killing God ย Verse Mia madre says she worries for my sanity Like God hasnโt destroyed the Earthโs sanctity Mio padre says I should take my medicine And if I keep on spiraling Iโm dead to him But why would I take pills to numb the rage? If feeling somethingโs crazy maybe Iโm insane Something in my head says I should go Take a knife and take the road to Rome ย Alternate Chorus Harmonies of hallelujah fall flat Why would I sing praises to a psychopath? Only narcissists believe immortal life Could ever be more than eternal strife Now I know of heavenโs fraud One that I had spread abroad And it only stops by killing God ย Bridge I stumble around the Vatican, feeling frenzy in my eyes Blurred faces fill the spaces I shuffle past The rage consumes me faster I thrust the wooden doors of the Sistine open I feel its fabled frescoes mocking me God reaches out to Adam on the ceiling Beginning manโs torment Prenda anche del frutto dellโalbero della vita E ne mangi, e viva in perpetuo Enslaved to sing his praises eternally ย I feel the paint envelop me Iโm taken to heaven in a chariot of acrylic blues Angels encircle me, singing tunes and tributes I hear fear in the cracks in their voices Millenia of stolen harmonies sweep the clouds And I see God now His outstretched arms extend toward me Il diavolo e Dio, a tetralogy of malice I unsheath my blade and say a prayer to myself ย Chorus Sang Hallelujah to on High, but now I know that I I believe in nothing and the truth is deafening I convicted the king, killed a crook and now he bleeds Jesus falls at my feet Heaven dims like candlelight And falls into a silent night God is dead and my world fades to white ย Oh wowโฆ damn. What a read. I definitely see why you wonย
Achilles. Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 Gods Jacksonโฆ. ย Iโmโฆ. ย There is simply nothing to say to that.ย ย ย ย My score should not have been so close to yours. ย ย 10 minutes ago, โlex said: You better share kingย I never share my songs publicly but Iโll think about it. ย ย Me and Jackson both using the word โpsychopathโ when discussing religion in our songs and coming in top 2. Very interesting.
JoeAg Posted June 6, 2022 Posted June 6, 2022 i guess iโll post mine cause f*ck it Spoiler Velitations so unnerving So vain, so reserving But did my vacancies require a slightly raised look? Did my shortcomings receive none other than a platitudinous crook? ย Baby i get it now I think i might read maladjusted Read the room once, shake it up a few inches Dote the pull, hoard the chain Spill my plume and inkย But only i can fuel the walk ย Oh for ****โs sake youโre uninspiringย That palimpsest yeah you wish iโd go revising But you may cross once, iโll never cross again For youโve furtively chastised me once, pretty sycophant ย Oh darling i think i might read maladjusted Read the room once, shake it up a few notches Dote the pull, hoard the chain Spill words black just to blinkย But only i can walk this walkย ย Oh no sugar not i will read maladjustedย For your heavens have given me bitter first tastes For your fruits are disastrous, your coals hidden masters, oh We philistines broke our leaves so treacherouslyย ย Plus time is of the essenceย Your horticultures wither with the clock of the thousands of suns Tick away like the sticks on beaten drums Hold me close with bricks melted and poured in my ears Golden cascades of starlight, sunlight for your children youโll someday bring To waterfalls, to waters of yore While my memory is but a filament A filament to rip and cackle at ย My love a writ A clause to rebel against For no floor is deep enough for youย And no ceiling too bright You canโt blind yourself on futures so rigid they wonโt refract Crumble for me, baby, crumble all night long ย As i wash up in the rivers of deep belligerenceย The dryness collected on my dermis like painted vagrancyย I chose to give myself, i chose to soak myself in I deal in hardened truths, i deal in banks of serpentine conclusion I waste time in unguarded baths, i waste life in my bed Who am i? ย Who would be this bitter in recollection?ย Who would you appreciate if not me? Was i fast enough? Was I welcoming enough? Open minded enough? A love of a thousand magnolias?ย A love of a sunset so melty? Not i, maladjusted, just a whole mess Not i, maladjusted, just a world youโll never return to ย A harkening of the creek behind my apartment Gives me hope that my memory of you will not fade As a masochist i must never let you sand Mustnโt let you escape these olden pressures For you instilled them upon me, gladdened like a coo of a crane ย Butt thatโs where we lived, sweet love In the hands of the emboldened In the lakes of the lost Forever and ever it felt like, for hard times and sad claims Never enough, i stuttered To myself as i carved my name in every alleyway I vandalize the roadways you so desired The pavements now my own, they felt my power even as i treaded lightly ย You felt my flaws Accepted the holes in my plots Accepted twists of fate in me and who i am But lost me with the riptides and apogees The encomium of light. the paean to a better future You didnโt want me there, and so i drifted I sailed away and was maladjusted but content in another land Youโre not to love me again, or hold another painting i scraped out within seconds for some unbound competition No more locker door slams, no more squeeze of a shoulder in a crosswalk No kissing at every rock show ย Said iโm sorry for it, but never showed it to your satisfaction Said my cries werenโt of anger and werenโt representative of my soul But were obviously not pleasing to the ear I apologize for the verbosity, but the redundancy of this letter isnโt for your comfort Itโs for my convalescence and my soul work Youโd best understand if i left it to be now So this is my official goodbye to you, as we ride into the distance Donโt forget my love for you, please let it remain even if it is all you remember of me i barely even remember writing it, it just came outย
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 38 minutes ago, Remmy said: Whew an excellent top 5 ย Congrats to you all, especially Jackson for getting raves & at least one 10/10! I heard a rumour I was not the only oneโฆ but I cannot confirm nor deny this speculationย ย
fountain Posted June 6, 2022 Author Posted June 6, 2022 Just now, JoeAg said: i guess iโll post mine cause f*ck it ย Reveal hidden contents Velitations so unnerving So vain, so reserving But did my vacancies require a slightly raised look? Did my shortcomings receive none other than a platitudinous crook? ย Baby i get it now I think i might read maladjusted Read the room once, shake it up a few inches Dote the pull, hoard the chain Spill my plume and inkย But only i can fuel the walk ย Oh for ****โs sake youโre uninspiringย That palimpsest yeah you wish iโd go revising But you may cross once, iโll never cross again For youโve furtively chastised me once, pretty sycophant ย Oh darling i think i might read maladjusted Read the room once, shake it up a few notches Dote the pull, hoard the chain Spill words black just to blinkย But only i can walk this walkย ย Oh no sugar not i will read maladjustedย For your heavens have given me bitter first tastes For your fruits are disastrous, your coals hidden masters, oh We philistines broke our leaves so treacherouslyย ย Plus time is of the essenceย Your horticultures wither with the clock of the thousands of suns Tick away like the sticks on beaten drums Hold me close with bricks melted and poured in my ears Golden cascades of starlight, sunlight for your children youโll someday bring To waterfalls, to waters of yore While my memory is but a filament A filament to rip and cackle at ย My love a writ A clause to rebel against For no floor is deep enough for youย And no ceiling too bright You canโt blind yourself on futures so rigid they wonโt refract Crumble for me, baby, crumble all night long ย As i wash up in the rivers of deep belligerenceย The dryness collected on my dermis like painted vagrancyย I chose to give myself, i chose to soak myself in I deal in hardened truths, i deal in banks of serpentine conclusion I waste time in unguarded baths, i waste life in my bed Who am i? ย Who would be this bitter in recollection?ย Who would you appreciate if not me? Was i fast enough? Was I welcoming enough? Open minded enough? A love of a thousand magnolias?ย A love of a sunset so melty? Not i, maladjusted, just a whole mess Not i, maladjusted, just a world youโll never return to ย A harkening of the creek behind my apartment Gives me hope that my memory of you will not fade As a masochist i must never let you sand Mustnโt let you escape these olden pressures For you instilled them upon me, gladdened like a coo of a crane ย Butt thatโs where we lived, sweet love In the hands of the emboldened In the lakes of the lost Forever and ever it felt like, for hard times and sad claims Never enough, i stuttered To myself as i carved my name in every alleyway I vandalize the roadways you so desired The pavements now my own, they felt my power even as i treaded lightly ย You felt my flaws Accepted the holes in my plots Accepted twists of fate in me and who i am But lost me with the riptides and apogees The encomium of light. the paean to a better future You didnโt want me there, and so i drifted I sailed away and was maladjusted but content in another land Youโre not to love me again, or hold another painting i scraped out within seconds for some unbound competition No more locker door slams, no more squeeze of a shoulder in a crosswalk No kissing at every rock show ย Said iโm sorry for it, but never showed it to your satisfaction Said my cries werenโt of anger and werenโt representative of my soul But were obviously not pleasing to the ear I apologize for the verbosity, but the redundancy of this letter isnโt for your comfort Itโs for my convalescence and my soul work Youโd best understand if i left it to be now So this is my official goodbye to you, as we ride into the distance Donโt forget my love for you, please let it remain even if it is all you remember of me i barely even remember writing it, it just came outย Is your guitar fixed now? ย
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