fememeist Posted May 12 Posted May 12 (edited) I think it's safe to post this again since that person should be sleeping, but I'll repost it(and I'm keeping it up this time but still keeping his username anonymous to respect his privacy less he wants to come forward, which I don't think he should). I met another ATRL user here when i travelled to another country last year and I really fell hard in love for him for the three days we've spent. I felt I was being the best version I could be; I was motivated and inspired by him. We kept communication for more than a year, up until two weeks ago when I decided to ghost. I want to preface this and say this relationship was established as a platonic friendship, with an open possibility of something more. I was much more invested into him than he was with me unfortunately, but such acts of care and love that I did for him did not go unnoticed. Before I left the country, I gave him my Taylor Swift cardigan because he's a swiftie and I knew he'd love it. On his 31st/32nd(?) birthday, I recorded a video of me baking a cake with his favorite tea flavor and making a popular birthday soup + meal in his culture. He was shocked to see this, but he was grateful and said he's never had anyone do this for him. It made me flushed with excitement and glee knowing I made him feel special, but after many dry, one-sided conversations and repeated patterns of replying back to certain messages with low effort responses, I just decided to tell him how I feel straight up. In my idealized version of him and wanting this one-sidedness to end how I felt I was owed, I wanted him to tell me that he did not like me the same way I did and cut me off from there, but instead he just said,"lmao!" If I pleaded for more explanation, I knew things were already obsolete and I'd just continue this cycle of one-sided conversations, so that's when I left him on read and ghosted. I've come a long way with past experiences of dating and finding my self-worth, but it hurts the most knowing I did all my best and I thought he would maybe care about me and not let me go by reaching out, but that didn't end up being. I was learning his native language(still am), and he indirectly motivated me to make reading an enjoyable hobby and I began my a regular fitness/workout + nutrition routine since beginning of March to be the best version of myself; a version of myself that I'm doing better without this unrequited friendship. Edited May 12 by fememeist 10 1 1
ATRL Moderator Popular Post wehavetostan Posted May 12 ATRL Moderator Popular Post Posted May 12 do you want me to merge this with the last thread and unhide it 26
fememeist Posted May 12 Author Posted May 12 2 minutes ago, wehavetostan said: do you want me to merge this with the last thread and unhide it No thank you, it'll look too messy. This is my first and only post I'll make of this. I thought about reposting again after hiding the first one last night and I feel like this is how I'll move on
fememeist Posted May 12 Author Posted May 12 5 minutes ago, shyboi said: is that other user in the room with us right now sis? I have him on ignore, so I'm not even sure. Considering he's almost always online, I wouldn't be surprised if he saw my thread from last night before I hid it
fememeist Posted May 12 Author Posted May 12 6 minutes ago, RideOrDie said: when he isn't sleeping then what Since I've come to the conclusion that he really doesn't care about me it shouldn't bother him that I made this thread
Popular Post glitch Posted May 12 Popular Post Posted May 12 12 minutes ago, fememeist said: but instead he just said,"lmao!" 19
Popular Post EtherealCat Posted May 12 Popular Post Posted May 12 your both atrlers like what was the plan there 30
fememeist Posted May 12 Author Posted May 12 1 minute ago, єѕℓαм said: Sorry but this is just petty & embarrassing Like who gaf Well, you did because you clicked and posted in this thread
єѕℓαм Posted May 12 Posted May 12 3 minutes ago, fememeist said: Well, you did because you clicked and posted in this thread Grow tf up 1 1
Zeferino Posted May 12 Posted May 12 (edited) Were the anime pix necessary Edited May 12 by Zeferino 6
Mr. Peanutbutter Posted May 12 Posted May 12 17 minutes ago, fememeist said: On his 31st/32nd(?) birthday, I recorded a video of me baking a cake with his favorite tea flavor and making a popular birthday soup + meal in his culture. He was shocked to see this, but he was grateful and said he's never had anyone do this for him. It made me flushed with excitement and glee knowing I made him feel special, but after many dry, one-sided conversations and repeated patterns of replying back to certain messages with low effort responses, I just decided to tell him how I feel straight up. Yeah I'm sure he was surprised as having someone from another country baking you a whole as$ birthday cake so you can imaginarily eat is not something very... common. 1 2
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