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Now, the title may seem facetious and the whole idea of making a thread like this on atrl dot net might seem deeply unserious, but in lieu of providing deeply personal and traumatic information (something that the folk on the site CANNOT be trusted with: see the literal banner), I figured I would just ask in this rather curt way. I have tried/am getting professional help, am "killing it" academically where I am (grad school, prestigious uni), and have the "respect" (whatever that means) of my peers/professors. I've tried a lot of things. Here's the kicker though: none of it matters. It makes no difference. I have been dealing with this gnawing, crippling depression for more than a decade now, and successive losses of people for like 4 years straight in my "prime" or whatever have irreparably changed me. I do not really care about love, friendship, or whatever and so the reverse is true. None of it really matters; and I have a very complicated (read: corrosive) relation to my body image/food which is also cratering big time, toxically. It is not as simple as going to the gym; I get lost in thoughts about the time I lost and all that and it just spirals. I actually do/did exercise quite a bit; it usually made me feel like **** because of the weight of lost time as opposed to the often-touted panacea of endorphins. So. This thread might be uncomfortable, and isn't an attempt either way to get validation — certainly nothing "changes" based on the anonymous comments on here; but there is some power (or perhaps, liberatory disregard?) in asking strangers whether it is ethical to go on when one truly believes a life worth living is out of the question. What has held me back is my family, with whom ties are strained but are bound, for better or worse, by shared trauma. I'm also not explicitly seeking out survival stories from y'all, but would welcome them if it felt natural. [I should also add this is more so a discussion, I am not at risk as we speak, ideation, for today. Not intent yet.]

I'm not listening to anything except for the sound of my own tears falling down my face.

It's not a criticism, traveling is awesome. But I'm just wondering because it seems like most of the gays I know are really into traveling to Europe, South America, etc multiple times a year even if they are barely able to afford it. Most of the other people I know travel every now and again, but not nearly as much as the gays. Is it just me or do you notice this as well?

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For me it's Jessie J cause every time I opened the damn app it'd just be a new pic of her baby which fine whatever but I've had enough

Borrowed this from Reddit In what ways are you a stereotypical gay?

We discuss manga and Anime in here. http://i.imgur.com/UmIQI2U.png

Have you ever noticed periods of your life where pretty privilige have affected your life ? I glowed up in early adulthood, and how people act is night and day. Really opened my eyes on how superficial we are as people. Are you yourself aware when you treat people with pretty privilege ?

I'm a Mac user and have been using Safari as my primary web browser for years. However, I just downloaded Arc, and it seems quite cute! I like the minimalistic design and how fast it loads pages, and it just feels more intuitive that Safari and others I've tried in the past. What web browser do you use and why?

On a bit of a cooking hunch lately, reply with some recipes you like for others! #ChefsOfATRL Blackened Salmon with Mango Salsa https://www.butterbeready.com/blackened-salmon-with-mango-salsa/ Kale, Sausage and Pepper Pasta https://www.eatingwell.com/recipe/274853/kale-sausage-pepper-pasta/ Kimchi Grilled Cheese (self explanatory but I love this chef ) https://www.halfbakedharvest.com/kimchi-grilled-cheese/

I've just been finding the men that used to do it for me don't do it for me anymore, and the men that used to not do it for me are all I want. Has anyone else had a big shift in preferences within a few months? I mean aesthetics and personality.

*atmospheric orchestral music* Reveal hidden contents THIS IS THE MANIFESTO OF MOTHER RANDOLPHSTER: On YouTube, a Google-owned entity on the Internet, a birth of magnificent and magical proportions took place. "Beyond the Trailer" was borne from an act of God. A @boxoffice analysis and review channel by the people, for the people. But the birth was not finite, it was infinite. As the YouTube subscribers numbered and the mitosis of ATRL memberships began, it was perceived that this infamous channel is not temporal, it is eternal. And thus, on October 28th 2019, began the beginning of a new race; a race of Grace stans within the race of humanity; a race of Grace's followers which bear no prejudice (unless your name is Jessica Chastain), no judgment (if your movie wasn't directed by Cathy Yan, Ava Duvarnay, or James Gunn), but boundless freedom (as long as you are Hello Fresh and pay for ads). But on that same day as the eternal Grace hovered in the fibres of the multiverse atop her YouTube throne, another more terrifying birth took place: the birth of shilling. And as Grace herself, split into two critics, rotated in agony between two ultimate forces, the pendulum of choice began its dance, swinging between biased and unbiased reviews, in addition to a ceaseless streaming services versus movie theatres debate. It seems easy, you imagine, to gravitate, instantly and unwaveringly, towards unbiased reviewing, but Grace wondered, "How can I maintain the channel I love with a few coins from Amazon Prime Video to upgrade my 480p TV on the floor?” It doesn't matter if you even love the movie, Only capital M-C-U Just click those like and subscribe buttons 'Cause you were Born This Grace, Gracists Happy 2nd anniversary *******!! Lyric and graphic by @Walk_Away21 and @starsailor Archived OP #1: #2

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The show must go on! ✨ Welcome to ATRL's first ever Broadway and West End thread - where we can discuss all things about Musical theatre, including the shows, casting announcements, drama and more ✨ For all theatre kids and ex-theatre kids - this is the place to break a leg Current shows running in Broadway: Current shows running in West End:

if yes, then do you look out for things like this?

do you believe in relationships? are you into relationships?

This one triggers me every time.

How would you rank them from favorite to least favorite

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Sydney Sweenie is smashing in Hollywood. Sabrina Carpenter is smashing in music. Tiffany Stratton is smashing in sports. Are we witnessing a renaissance for the sexiness Paris Hilton/Britney Spears/Christina Aguilera era of Marilyn Monroe types or is this just a post-Barbie world fad trend that won't last much long that we are noticing right now? Should brunettes and red-haired girls be scared? Are tomboys and emo/goth/alt girls being replaced by "Barbie-dolls" again? Or is this simply a reponse to Billie Eilish and Olivia Rodrigo being the Avril/P!nk of this generation but with roles now being reversed and the Britneys and Christinas of the world are now taking baci their throne?