discussion What is your toxic trait?

[Solar]

overthinking

[Lil Mistee]

I want to know how everything works and when I don't I get annoyed ^_^

[Alldeezy]

I don't like affection 

I'll probably love my fave singers more than you 

 

But all serious it's probably my bpd it's not on purpose but it's a mental illness that I can never cure.

[Da Vinci]

Where do I even begin?

 

 

[naval23]

1 hour ago, Devin said:

holding grudges. 

 

the "toxic trait" part is me calculating, acting like everything cool & getting my lick back when u least expect it. an old friend of mine got hit by a car i was gonna call for help but then i remembered what they did to me 12 years ago, so i let someone else call a medic.

[naval23]

1 hour ago, AvadaKedavra said:

1. I have a big ego when it comes to places. If I don't feel comfortable somewhere or if it doesn't feel like it's enough for me, I just move on. For example, one of my first universities was so awful, and I didn't connect with the environment or the people there, so I left. I thought, "This place is tacky and dumb; I deserve better." A lot of people just pushed through and got their degrees quickly, but not me. I waited until I was in a top university, even if it meant sacrificing time and money. I don't like to settle for less—I feel like I'm major and deserve a major place
   
    Another example: If I were a pop singer, I wouldn't want to only sing in Spanish, like Karol G or Rosalía. I'd aim for a crossover, like Shakira did.
   I have big ambitions for my life,             even if sometimes I can't quite reach the heights I want.
    
2. I have a hard time connecting with people in real life.  I don't know how to just talk to people casually—I don't understand how some people do it so easily. I only talk if they initiate. I'm a lone wolf, very shy and focused on my own world. I'm also a serious person and lack natural comedic charisma, so people find me overly technical and, I guess, boring? My conversations tend to be question-and-answer rather than spontaneous and full of small talk. It's like I'm a robot gathering information and trying to connect. The extroverted, party-going, messy types—that's the opposite of me. I'm definitely a bit of an oddball.
    

3. I'm very concerned with my safety and always cautious about the things I do. Some people call me complicated,,
   Examples:
    I have to be careful. When I cook, I make sure to protect my hands and eyes. I only cross the street when it's completely empty. If I go hiking, I bring a stick or something to protect myself, and I stay indoors during lightning storms. I see life as something very fragile. Im extraattentive to safety
    

4. I'm overly emotional, and seeing people I care about go through struggles really affects me and is hard just to forget the situations and move n with my life. I wish I had a magic wand to make their wishes come true. I can be too kind, and in my country, there's a "dog-eat-dog" culture. People often see kindness as weakness and try to take advantage of you. Been in so many bad situations just cause i was "nice"
    

5. I'm highly tempted by darkness sometimes. There are moments I feel like abandoning my clean, relaxing life and going full-on rebellious. But my life is happy, so I don't see the point in ruining it just to give in to my animalistic savage instincts.

 

damn your 2nd one hit me hard because I feel I'm the same way. The 3rd one seems like a strength to me 

[naval23]

1 hour ago, rebeltwat said:

I like being on my own and prefer not seeing anyone more than once a week/every 2 weeks, even my closest friends. I also hate frequent texting and calling. I think I'll be single for awhile 

i'm the exact same way - so thankful for my friends though but I don't need to see them or talk to them everyday

[Curaga]

Acting helpless/incapable when I don't want to do or fix something 

[AshleyLovescats887]

Due to me being a cancer, I sense everything tenfold. Even if I know that it's only a joke, I will still feel hurt and betrayed.

 

It's also really difficult to reach out to me because I tend to live in my own world that I make 

[AvadaKedavra]

3 hours ago, Xtina23 said:

Oh, and I've literally fought other bottoms for tops on Grindr.

and I'm not even sorry!!

 

if I see a top I want on the app and see a bottom next to him, I will literally message the bottom to get away from the top cause he's mine.

 

half my messages are me fighting with bottoms, and me talking with tops

 

I also have 3 tops on rotation from Grindr, but still want more. idk. we all going to die one day anyway.

going to keep my j-lo booty in tip top shape and get all the tops I want, when I want, okurr?!!!

 

time is ticking, *******!!

 

dkljdskfds;jfdsj;kfd'gkfods;fjkdsn

 

[tjspy]

Impostor syndrome 

And because of that not really fighting for what I want and let good things die I hate it here

[tjspy]

Impostor syndrome 

And because of that not really fighting for what I want and let good things die I hate it here

[Princess Aurora]

Victim mentality I guess

[Illyboy]

6 hours ago, Odette Violet said:

antisocial, introvert and being hot tempered 

[Illyboy]

I would quote the ones I related to but I'm lazy so I will just add upon

 

OT: Pretending everything's fine when it's not ("fake it till you make it" except i never make it because bottling it all up means i eventually burst a couple times a year), and not telling people when it's not alright because I care more what they would think of me than for my own wellbeing

[glitch]

6 hours ago, cuteboyzay said:

I'm bad with physical intimacy lmao. Literally I have to be drunk just to hookup with anybody, and even with guys I've dated it takes a lot of mental hoops for me to go through in order being comfortable with letting them touch me lmaooo!!! 

I can sorta relate to this honestly. I hate hugs, even from friends, but I force myself to do it because it's the socially acceptable thing to do. Same with guys, the first time I kiss someone I don't actually want to do it, I just know if I make myself do it once it will feel easier after that 

[Illyboy]

Also, being good at studying/academics but also having 0 study habit so I often find myself distracted at class or procastinating assignments and leaving them last minute so I get mid-bad grades but if I have a good day I can the teacher's fav bc I ask a lot of questions during the lecture (like useful questions, tho my silly ass sometimes also ask dumbs ones)

It's just so confusing/messy.

Edited November 5 by Illyboy
typo

[Johnny Jacobs]

I'm highly vindictive and i will hold a Grudge 4ever

[Velvet Night]

Growing up feeling very unseen, I have a tendency to overshare and get excited if someone shows an interest in me. It can come across as overriding and waiting for someone to finish what they are saying just so I can say my thing. I also want people to genuinely like me so I tell them a lot of the bad or difficult stuff right away, so they are pre-warned and I don't feel like I'm wasting my time with someone who can't handle the **** that lead to who I am now. 

[Dear Reader]

Being emotionally unavailable, it has lead to wasting incredible men that wanted to date me and be my boyfriend. 

 

Edit: Also this below. The last boy I went on a date with told me I had a natural talent to self-sabotage Stream Anti-Hero, I guess. 

 

1 hour ago, tjspy said:

Impostor syndrome 

And because of that not really fighting for what I want and let good things die I hate it here

Edited November 5 by Dear Reader

[David_Greengrass97]

7 hours ago, cuteboyzay said:

I oddly enough attract guys like this lmao! I think it's cause I'm not an emotional person and rarely feel anger.

That's interesting,hmm. Anyway, are you a top or a bottom? I need a dick to ride 

[cuteboyzay]

3 minutes ago, David_Greengrass97 said:

That's interesting,hmm. Anyway, are you a top or a bottom? I need a dick to ride 

LMAOOOO STOPPP IHYYY!!!

 

Verse pookie 

Edited November 5 by cuteboyzay

[David_Greengrass97]

3 minutes ago, cuteboyzay said:

LMAOOOO STOPPP IHYYY!!!

 

Verse pookie 

I'm just joking, hunnay 

[Flanders]

Jealousy, manifesting itself as meanness. Not a lot but more often than I'd like. It all springs out of self-loathing of course. Trying to get better though!

[єѕℓαм]

I don't really text first & i'm working on that tbh