discussion I think Im gonna end my life tonight.

[bocelli]

I feel so lonely. Im surrounded by so many people I talk to every day and still I feel like the loneliest person alive and its becoming unbearable. 

 

The only person Im attracted to and love hates my guts. Ive posted about this man a couple of days ago, this man bought me gifts, took me out for dinner, spent a ton of time with myself...all that, just to switch on me one day and start being extremely nasty for absolutely no reason. Today I was with my friends, I spotted him, I said hi, he literally called me a f*ggot to my face in a crowd full of people. Everyone was looking, I was so ashamed. This made me hate who I am. The only person I love and have ever wanted hates me for who I am. My world crashed down and a part of me thinks we never stood a chance, he just liked the attention and played with my feelings. 

 

I wont love again. And life without love isnt worth living.

 

Im handsome, Ive got a ton of money in my bank account, Im healthy, my family is healthy (and happy) AND YET I dont see a future for myself. Im 30 today and this feels like the end of the road already.

 

Im typing this while holding a bunch of sleeping pills in my hand. Might swallow it after I press submit. Dont know if anyone will care, not that it matters anymore. 

Edited June 19, 2022 by bocelli

[Arrows]

One day you’ll thank yourself for holding on and throwing those pills in the bin

 

Every feeling fades over time, good and bad. Heartbreak and rejection can feel like it’ll be forever, but it won’t. One day you’ll wake up and realize this man is nothing but absolute scum that you’re much better off without. 

[GrandeVersace]

You don't deserve this. To ruin your life because of an *******. Please calm down and throw those pills in the bin. 

[Jai]

I care. Can we just talk? Even if it’s DMs. There is so much more for you and even if I’m a complete stranger I care about you; and I want you to stick around.

[PMKARDASHIAN]

Because of a man who hates himself thus projecting that hate onto you? 100% not worth it, in any regard, in any capacity. 
I’ve suffered with mental health issues and suicidal thoughts for years, so trust me when I say I understand where your head is right now.

you’ve got a lot of supportive friends and family? Call them. If you can’t, PM me. 

DO NOT DO THIS

[Into The Void]

7 minutes ago, bocelli said:

I feel so lonely. Im surrounded by so many people I talk to every day and still I feel like the loneliest person alive and its becoming unbearable. 

 

The only person Im attracted to and love hates my guts. Ive posted about this man a couple of days ago, this man bought me gifts, took me out for dinner, spent a ton of time with myself...all that, just to switch on me one day and start being extremely nasty for absolutely no reason. Today I was with my friends, I spotted him, I said hi, he literally called me a f*ggot to my face in a crowd full of people. Everyone was looking, I was so ashamed. This made me hate who I am. The only person I love and have ever wanted hates me for who I am. My world crashed down and a part of me thinks we never stood a chance, he just liked the attention and played with my feelings. 

 

I wont love again. And life without love isnt worth living.

 

Im handsome, Ive got a ton of money in my bank account, Im healthy, my family is healthy (and happy). 

 

I dont see a future for myself. Im 30 today and this feels like the end of the road already.

 

Im typing this while holding a bunch of sleeping pills in my hand. Might swallow it after I press submit. Dont know if anyone will care, not that it matters anymore. 

Stay strong this man isn't worth it

[X~MoviePoP]

18 minutes ago, bocelli said:

I feel so lonely. Im surrounded by so many people I talk to every day and still I feel like the loneliest person alive and its becoming unbearable. 

 

The only person Im attracted to and love hates my guts. Ive posted about this man a couple of days ago, this man bought me gifts, took me out for dinner, spent a ton of time with myself...all that, just to switch on me one day and start being extremely nasty for absolutely no reason. Today I was with my friends, I spotted him, I said hi, he literally called me a f*ggot to my face in a crowd full of people. Everyone was looking, I was so ashamed. This made me hate who I am. The only person I love and have ever wanted hates me for who I am. My world crashed down and a part of me thinks we never stood a chance, he just liked the attention and played with my feelings. 

 

I wont love again. And life without love isnt worth living.

 

Im handsome, Ive got a ton of money in my bank account, Im healthy, my family is healthy (and happy). 

 

I dont see a future for myself. Im 30 today and this feels like the end of the road already.

 

Im typing this while holding a bunch of sleeping pills in my hand. Might swallow it after I press submit. Dont know if anyone will care, not that it matters anymore. 

 DO NOT do this. I promise you, you will find love again.

 

This is a momentary lapse.

 

Do not. Do not. Do not give into these negative feelings. A new day of happiness is ahead, I PROMISE YOU

[Arlahndo]

Don’t do it sis. You’ll regret it once you’re on the other side. 

[Punky Rooster]

Writing this post shows you don't really want to end it all, you wouldn't make a speech if you really wanted to end your life, you'd just do it and not reach out to anyone - so that's a good positive step.

 

Never let anyone else determine your own worth, believe it or not 9/10 people feel exactly the same way as you do right now when "love" isn't like what you see in the movies.

[Shelter]

Don’t end your life because of someone else. You seem to have a lot going for you. Try get help so you can move on from him, and start again. 

[ThomasTea]

You have no idea what your future holds. Don’t let these sad moments prevent you from building a beautiful, happy future. Think of all the amazing moments you’ll prevent yourself from having, all the people you’ll meet, all the new songs/albums that you’ll listen to and love. 
 

There’s so many people you matter to. Please, put those pills in the bin! 

[PMKARDASHIAN]

Just now, Power love said:

How old are you sweetie? 

He said he’s 30. Age has nothing to do with this 

[YellowRibbon]

10 minutes ago, bocelli said:

I feel so lonely. Im surrounded by so many people I talk to every day and still I feel like the loneliest person alive and its becoming unbearable. 

 

The only person Im attracted to and love hates my guts. Ive posted about this man a couple of days ago, this man bought me gifts, took me out for dinner, spent a ton of time with myself...all that, just to switch on me one day and start being extremely nasty for absolutely no reason. Today I was with my friends, I spotted him, I said hi, he literally called me a f*ggot to my face in a crowd full of people. Everyone was looking, I was so ashamed. This made me hate who I am. The only person I love and have ever wanted hates me for who I am. My world crashed down and a part of me thinks we never stood a chance, he just liked the attention and played with my feelings. 

 

I wont love again. And life without love isnt worth living.

 

Im handsome, Ive got a ton of money in my bank account, Im healthy, my family is healthy (and happy). 

 

I dont see a future for myself. Im 30 today and this feels like the end of the road already.

 

Im typing this while holding a bunch of sleeping pills in my hand. Might swallow it after I press submit. Dont know if anyone will care, not that it matters anymore. 

DON'T DO IT... Life can be very sh*tty at times, but there are moments in your future that you'll want to cherish forever, a f*cking a*shole is not worth it, I promise. 

[khalyan]

I locked this

 

@bocelli please reach out to a friend or family member you’re close to.  Or one of us.  Or reach out to the suicide hotlines for your country.  We love you and don’t want anything to happen to you.  
 

https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/