news LGBT+ influencer, Lorenzo Buffa (cabinfruit), passes away from suicide

[Jotham]

[50thStateofMind]

This is so sad. His IG post about his ex 😕

[AshleyLovescats887]

Is it just me or we have already witnessed so many deaths this year?

[Vixen Eyes]

;-;

https://www.instagram.com/p/DEdwXsROkWU/

 

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I'm back with Myles. Together again. I hope. I'm sorry everyone. A few know they could have shown me love but refused and after awhile I was only left with a monster, who had broken me down over 5 years and i was trapped with stockholm syndrome feeding on the morsels of hope and love for which were rare and taken away and then punishment came. My ex Ryan broke me into nothing and I tried to make it through this but i couldn't, I had seen evil and it was from a place where i only ever believed and imagined love. No one can understand the psyche of loss under such cruel treatment and hearing another rewrite of reality. I lost friends because i was unstable but no one asked or considered the cause of it. ryan would tell me to do it again and again... and then at times come here and love on me, a thing i craved, but i was conditioned to no only this abusive love. I had no support pillars to turn to, I tried, but my sense of self became monsterous because he isolated me, broke me, and lied to me about everything. This isn't a broken heart ending this is a person saying I have to be the pain of this persons psychological abuse. Days ago he told me he loved me and wanted me to work together, today he humiliated me publicly, he came here many times and i never once went to buffalo. I lost everyone that mattered because of him. He took me for granted and i was never good enough or could meet whatever standard. I faced his rage, alone, for years, mostly in silence but those that knew where i spoke my silence out loud, the few who most could have helped me who knew how severe, you turned your back, so i stopped reaching out to anyone. I'm sorry to fail everyone here, i'm so sorry. Ryan St Pierre of Buffalo saw me cry and break and knew he was breaking me, and he made it so he was all i had, he bared witness til the end and the worst part is i still love some part him and can't hate him. This is why i couldn't handle it, hate isn't in my heart and he needed me to exist with that... and facing that i can't survive. I only wanted love, we are all just love, love is all we have.

 

Edited Monday at 05:53 PM by Vixen Eyes

[ArtDeco]

this is heartbreaking :( all these deaths lately are unreal, like I said in the post about the Vivienne gay men's mental health needs to be a hot topic for 2025 because it's just getting out of hand

[Contessa]

Abusers that subjugate ppl to any kind of cruelty are the only ppl that deserve the death sentence, tbh.

 

RIP

[Namie-Knowles]

Damn RIP. Really shitty he decided to blame ex-friends that moved on after being unable to help him with his super toxic relationships though. Essentially blaming 50% of his suicide on them rather than the mental health decline and his abuser. He didn't see them as human beings with their own emotional state and issues but rather purely as living to support him. I hope his friends who realized they were unable to help unless he helped himself and that they weren't at fault for preserving their own mental health after multiple attempts and investing emotional energy into his relationship. 

 

As for whoever Ryan is, the catalyst for all of this, I want to say something but don't want a WP so. Just **** Ryan.

Edited Monday at 08:37 PM by Namie-Knowles