CRUNK. Posted November 7 Posted November 7 Since I am an ostomate, I am struggling with my body. On the other hand I did accept what happens... Fortunately I have a husband, 18 years together. I don't know what I would feel like if I am single. I think it would be very hard for me.
JoeAg Posted November 7 Posted November 7 kind of! but the longer I'm alive, the more accepting I am of my own beauty that is unique and will never be 100% conventional. it's tough when I've always been short, had a big nose, had a hard time gaining weight, had curly and hard to manage hair, and had very common coloring. I have dark brown hair and medium brown/hazel eyes, I always wanted my eyes to be lighter or my hair to be straighter… but I'm working with what I have and I really don't want to do anything with my nose at this point. people are right when they talk about faces "coming together," like the first two things to grow for me during puberty were my d and my nose, and the rest of my face was just NOT matching how big it was! I haaaated how big my nose was, but sometime around age 21 or 22, the rest of my face started MAJORLY catching up, and now I can say it's truly harmonious with the rest of my face! I'm proud of the muscle I've been gaining at the gym over the past 18ish months, and I believe that my body is looking hot these days, but I'm still having somewhat of a tough time bulking cause I'm working against a REALLY fast metabolism (my four older siblings and I all inherited this from our mother, it's literally a thing with jewish people who are descendants of peasants/farmers lol) and the only place my body wants to gain weight and bulk is my tummy () so that's been a struggle. my hair also takes a REALLY long time to f*cking grow (and I take supplements) and it's only just past my shoulders but I want it down to my belly button eventually. yknow, but at the end of the day, I'm doing my best and I'm keeping myself looking as hot as I can. I know I'm doing something right cause I'm having a lot of fun times with people from sniffies, but the inner love is still a work in progress! I've thought about taking gear, but I've decided against it (for the moment at least) and instead trying to bulk and cut, with right now until a week after my birthday being bulking season and then trying out cutting after then. looking how I look now is not an insane amount of upkeep, but working out regularly, drinking a f*ckton of water, moisturizing at LEAST after every time I shower, keeping my hair hydrated, combing my hair every night (at work), getting as good of sleep as I can with my weird work schedule, and eating enough is what I gotta do… and I do it pretty well! so yeah the main goal is becoming the best Joe possible and aging well, and also reminding myself that a lot of my friends are just flexing in their photos (which like girl so am I!) and so it's futile to compare my already pretty muscular body to those of others it's a hard world, and being a queer masc person it's especially hard living up to certain ridiculous standards we set for ourselves! a lot of men are NOT into how long I keep my hair, but that's one thing that's not a compromise lmao. not to literally be Samson but my hair is kind of my strength source (other than my arms) and that may be one thing that'll always keep me from achieving a more "conventional" appearance that a lot of gays strive the most for. my hair sets me apart and even though the awkward stage is BRUTAL, i'm not quitting until I reach my goal so tl;dr kinda, but I'm also just pursuing the perfect ideal I've set for myself and what I have going for me already, it's about natural potential 3
єѕℓαм Posted November 7 Posted November 7 1 hour ago, AlanRickman1946 said: Can I ask you something. How much do you weigh? 60kg now
AlanRickman1946 Posted November 7 Posted November 7 5 minutes ago, єѕℓαм said: 60kg now Skinny legend. 2
AlanRickman1946 Posted November 7 Posted November 7 10 minutes ago, JoeAg said: kind of! but the longer I'm alive, the more accepting I am of my own beauty that is unique and will never be 100% conventional. it's tough when I've always been short, had a big nose, had a hard time gaining weight, had curly and hard to manage hair, and had very common coloring. I have dark brown hair and medium brown/hazel eyes, I always wanted my eyes to be lighter or my hair to be straighter… but I'm working with what I have and I really don't want to do anything with my nose at this point. people are right when they talk about faces "coming together," like the first two things to grow for me during puberty were my d and my nose, and the rest of my face was just NOT matching how big it was! I haaaated how big my nose was, but sometime around age 21 or 22, the rest of my face started MAJORLY catching up, and now I can say it's truly harmonious with the rest of my face! I'm proud of the muscle I've been gaining at the gym over the past 18ish months, and I believe that my body is looking hot these days, but I'm still having somewhat of a tough time bulking cause I'm working against a REALLY fast metabolism (my four older siblings and I all inherited this from our mother, it's literally a thing with jewish people who are descendants of peasants/farmers lol) and the only place my body wants to gain weight and bulk is my tummy () so that's been a struggle. my hair also takes a REALLY long time to f*cking grow (and I take supplements) and it's only just past my shoulders but I want it down to my belly button eventually. yknow, but at the end of the day, I'm doing my best and I'm keeping myself looking as hot as I can. I know I'm doing something right cause I'm having a lot of fun times with people from sniffies, but the inner love is still a work in progress! I've thought about taking gear, but I've decided against it (for the moment at least) and instead trying to bulk and cut, with right now until a week after my birthday being bulking season and then trying out cutting after then. looking how I look now is not an insane amount of upkeep, but working out regularly, drinking a f*ckton of water, moisturizing at LEAST after every time I shower, keeping my hair hydrated, combing my hair every night (at work), getting as good of sleep as I can with my weird work schedule, and eating enough is what I gotta do… and I do it pretty well! so yeah the main goal is becoming the best Joe possible and aging well, and also reminding myself that a lot of my friends are just flexing in their photos (which like girl so am I!) and so it's futile to compare my already pretty muscular body to those of others it's a hard world, and being a queer masc person it's especially hard living up to certain ridiculous standards we set for ourselves! a lot of men are NOT into how long I keep my hair, but that's one thing that's not a compromise lmao. not to literally be Samson but my hair is kind of my strength source (other than my arms) and that may be one thing that'll always keep me from achieving a more "conventional" appearance that a lot of gays strive the most for. my hair sets me apart and even though the awkward stage is BRUTAL, i'm not quitting until I reach my goal so tl;dr kinda, but I'm also just pursuing the perfect ideal I've set for myself and what I have going for me already, it's about natural potential You are trans?
JoeAg Posted November 7 Posted November 7 Just now, AlanRickman1946 said: You are trans? nah I'm a cis dude
Prodigal Self Posted November 7 Posted November 7 Nah I do a shitload of drugs in hopes for an early death
Gladiator Posted November 7 Posted November 7 Only in terms of physique. And not necessarily perfection.
WEEKND Posted November 7 Posted November 7 I give myself dix sur dix because I found a new love (self love) and I found it in God Eating the best food, treating the body right and self respect are all things that lead to the best version of oneself which is indubitably "perfection"
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