Breathe On Moi Posted April 15 Posted April 15 2 hours ago, Dula Peep said: I think you're just like constantly hard, like, all the time? mte that's what they tell me on grindr
JoeAg Posted April 15 Posted April 15 (edited) imagine feeling that pit in your stomach you get when you're on a rollercoaster and it drops, or that feelings when you're getting a pedicure and the nail technician grazes their nails up your lower legs while your feet are in that little warm bath… but imagine that to a point where it feels like it could make you sick at any moment. like it could make your bones jump out of your skin if they got a chance to catch you slipping. that's what being in love is like my first true love was like that, and I'm actually still kinda friends with her, and it turns out she felt the same way about me, back when she was 16 and hadn't transitioned or came out as trans, and I was 15 and a little dweeb. my second true love, and longest relationship was with my ex boyfriend, who got with me when I was 18 and about to leave to colorado for college, and he was an aimless bearded, bearish 22 year old in a funk rock band. that relationship was almost two years, and for me the intensity NEVER faded Spoiler I wanted to be with Miles everywhere! the night I met him was pure The Perks of Being a Wallflower-grade coming of age cheesy, vulnerable beauty. we asked our mutual friend about each other, I stared at him with hearts in my eyes while he rocked out onstage. dyed yellowish swoopy emo hair, tank top, pansexual flag tattoo on his bicep. big beard, I could even see some sexy chest hair poking out of his shirt… cute gauges, even cuter smile. just so charismatic, and somehow he thought of ME as being even more charismatic. here's a pic of us later that year, during my first christmas break back from college 😭 look how young I was!! I still wear that galaxy shirt all the time, 8.5 years later lol he moved across the country a few days after that^ so he could meet me back in boulder and we could be together in person. it eventually put a strain on our relationship. colorado just wasn't for him! even as our relationship dwindled, I never stopped being in love with him. our dynamic was actually truly fascinating but also so all-americanly queer. we started in spring 2015 being poly with that aforementioned mutual friend, and then by the end of the summer we closed our relationship, which caused my first semester of college to be me in a long distance monogamous relationship definitely regrettable looking back lol. i'm in no way into monogamy at this point Spoiler then, when he moved to boulder to be with me—another big mistake: don't let someone move across the country for you after you've only dated for like 8 months… it was silly, but he was the one who wanted to in the first place and I was still in my late teens so I was feelin it—we eventually became open again. I loved him being in boulder with me. we'd get super high, he helped me produce and master one of the best songs I've ever made… we spent valentine's 2016 together, we smoked a joint outside the movie theatre and watched Deadpool. we had so much fun but boulder just wasn't his vibe, at the end of the day. by the time he moved back to maryland in late summer 2016, he found another guy back home and I had a best friend who I'd f*ck all the time, so we were officially poly again for the rest of our relationship Spoiler doesn't that feel like so typically queer american? at the time, I wasn't feeling it though. I met the guy over thanksgiving break 2016 when I was back in maryland and I REALLY was not a fan. 19 year old Joe had romantic jealousy issues (which have, thankfully, long since dissipated!) and I was just angry all the time. during that break, and the following christmas break a month late, we barely had sex. I was upset about it because I loved topping him and we were so passionate every time we made love but he just wasn't as horned up as he used to be. eventually, right after valentine's 2017, I found out that he'd been bad at texting because his new guy in maryland was jealous of ME as well and Miles was so exhausted all the time. on february 19, 2017, after dating for almost 2 years, my world fell apart. I made him my world, which was a tough lesson for myself to learn. you can't do that. you have to be the center of your universe! not them! he had gone with his maryland bf to chicago without telling me and they had gotten sh*tty matching moon tattoos together, while leaving me with text radio silence. i screamed at him over facetime in my best friend's dad's car in the parking lot of an indian restaurant. we split. I wrote a whole EP/breakup album about our relationship. I spent the rest of 2017 growing the f*ck up, losing my mind, getting it back together again. i don't remember the day, but one of those days back in december 2016 was the last time I saw Miles in person. love can make you go wild. it can change you from your core to your skin. it can make you panic and become a shell of yourself. at its best, it can also make you feel free and the most human you'll ever feel. I remember way back at the beginning of our relationship, one night walking through a hot late spring drizzle in suburban maryland, he started crying and grabbed my shoulders and told me he was beginning to fall harder than he'd ever fallen for anyone before. I didn't want to blow my cool or anything but I'm sure he knew that I had already been in love with him since the moment we met that night at that show. no one made me feel the way he did, not even the person I was in love with as a 15 year old before him made me feel that way. I wrote so many songs about him. I gave him my all! Spoiler he made me want to be the best musician I could ever be. and he believed in me! he loved my music, he loved the candor of my lyrics and my unapologetically myself nature. but man, I was so insecure. I haven't been as insecure for such a long time ever, ever since then. so to sum it up? being in love is the most intense emotion I've ever felt. it's overwhelming. you feel like you're breathing in an aromatic patch of flowers, but all the time whenever you think about them. they make you grow, and you're a better person when everything has finished and the dust has settled. I'll never forget the love I had with him. I genuinely thought at one point that he'd be the one I'd be with forever! but it wasn't meant to be. I've worked through this, but some of the feelings are still raw 7 years later! love affects you beyond human measure. all the love songs in the world can't quantify the buzzing you feel. it's overwhelming wow I should really write a whole story based on that love lmao I was in love for a bit last year with my most recent ex-boyfriend too. we only dated for about 58 days, but I thought he was so cool at first and it made me lose myself and become a shell of myself and he turned out to be a big time assh*le. but yeah, the love with Miles was just beyond anything else I've ever experienced tbh! Edited April 16 by JoeAg 1
Oktober Knight Posted April 16 Posted April 16 It's too hard to explain. When somethings becomes your absolute highest priority in life and you can't think of anything else but your partner, then you just know. Being in love is the best feeling ever, there's absolutely nothing that compares to it. It's like you're floating in clouds.
chaklux Posted April 16 Posted April 16 6 hours ago, Mr. Peanutbutter said: You feel happy, euphoric, anxious, nervous and excited all at once and it can make you lowkey lose sense of reality for some moments, for better or for worse. Like you might legit put the person you love on top of your friends, family, job, everything but also the hardships you might have in life are going to feel less bad cause you're in love. But it's definitely a feeling that peaks and goes down a bit. You won't feel that euphoric state forever. All these !! Especially the euphoria part. A lot of people only wants that euphoric phase of love which doesn't last forever. Hence, when the realise they are no longer crazy about you again , they just break up , rinse and repeat ! In long term healthy relationships, love becomes a commitment to make it work, a conscious decision that you both choose each other every day, to grow , learn and unlearn together , etc. Relationship rarely lasts based on just feelings/euphoria .
Cyanide Posted April 16 Posted April 16 Like others are saying it's a mix of those euphoric moments and a sense of comfort and peace within the connection. I just want to protect that sweet innocent angel forever
velocity Posted April 17 Posted April 17 true soulbounding love is the most incredible feeling in the world. when someone loves you so much they want all parts of you and you want the same. it's truly the most beautiful feeling in the world and it changes who you are but when it ends it's beyond devastating and destructive. you are never the same again.
Before Today Posted April 17 Posted April 17 It sucks because it comes with the painful heartbreaks. Learn to love and adjust your expectations but don't numb yourself down
Frappucino Posted April 17 Posted April 17 Well, Tina did that one song What's Love Got To Do With It…
Illuminati Posted April 17 Posted April 17 It's great, I was gonna go into detail and had this all written out but basically a part of you stays with that person forever. 1
Avenue Posted April 17 Posted April 17 it's like sniffing poppers. you get an unusual feeling and then after a few secs ur like, that's it? then u sniff again coz u felt relaxed before but then still u didnt get the rush people were talking about in songs.
SoldierofLove Posted April 18 Posted April 18 Close yours eyes. Think about the person you love being diagnosed with a terminal illness. Picture them suffering from dementia when you're both in your 80s. If you tear up at the thought of your partner suffering and you end up spending the rest of your life without them, you're in deep love.
Batsy Armada Posted April 18 Posted April 18 It felt like a degree of insanity to me. I definitely wasn't myself in the moment. I felt a combination of euphoria, bliss, anxiousness and an overwhelming sense of desire. A desire to always be around this person. It's intoxicating.
Karla Cabello Posted April 18 Posted April 18 (edited) i dont know i have never been like i have been in relationships but never in love im starting to get worried Edited April 18 by Karla Cabello
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