X Factor judge *Tulisa Contostavlos wept on TV over her sex tape nightmare.
The singer revealed that the scandal almost ruined her career and *reputation and gave her a nervous breakdown. Tulisa, of former band N-Dubz, sobbed: “I thought: ‘The whole of the UK thinks I’m a slapper.'”
The singer, 23, talked about her ordeal to pal Alan Carr, 35, on his Channel 4 show Chatty Man. During filming she downed four vodka Red Bulls and had to be comforted by Carr. Tulisa claims she was tipped off last summer that a tape *featuring her with ex-boyfriend Justin Edwards, 28, was about to be released on the net.
However, Justin denied he had the tape or was *behind the leak. Having just landed a job as a new judge on X Factor, Tulisa feared she would be fired if the tape got out.
She said: “It’s been torture for about 8 months. I found out just before I *started filming X Factor. So the first thing I did, I went to one of the producers on the show who I was really close with called Beth. I said: ‘Look there’s a possibility my ex has this footage and wants to release it. What is it going to do to my career? How is it going to affect me?’
“She said to me at the time that she didn’t know, she wasn’t sure. Which frightened me even more, obviously. So every day during X Factor I was absolutely sh***ing *myself because I didn’t want anything like that out there. I’ve always said I wouldn’t even do a bloody bikini shoot let alone something like that. I’m all about, to an extent, *morals and I’ve got a really close-knit family and things like that. It’s just not right.”
Tulisa got through the series without the tape being leaked and even won the ITV contest with her girlband Little Mix. But last month footage from the video was put on the net showing her performing a sex act on Justin. Tulisa, who says she has only ever seen stills of the video, told Alan: “I would hardly call it a sex tape. Number one, because there was no sex involved in it. Number two, a 19-year-old who’s just starting to learn to give b***-jobs and her boyfriend pulls out a video camera doesn’t really class as a sex tape.”
She admitted going into hiding and suffering a mini mental *breakdown. Tulisa posted a YouTube clip of herself confessing that it was her on the tape, but telling fans she was “devastated and heartbroken”. With tears in her eyes she told Alan she refused advice to sweep the matter *under the carpet: "Fans could be thinking that I’ve just met some randomer backstage in my dressing room at a gig and I don’t want people to think that of me.”
Tulisa’s ex, Justin, denies *leaking the tape but she hissed: “Yeah, he didn’t – my arse crack! He’s a tw*t.”
Tulisa has not given up on men and has recently been *romantically linked to Skins hunk Jack O’Connell, 21. But she said: “I don’t really feel comfortable talking about it. I’ve never liked talking about romances. I’m in a relationship and he’s a very nice guy.”
The backlash is just horrible. I'd totally forgotten about the tape though. Why can't others
I’ve always said I wouldn’t even do a bloody bikini shoot let alone something like that. I’m all about, to an extent, *morals and I’ve got a really close-knit family and things like that. It’s just not right.”
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